If the secret I had to keep had been mine, I must have confided1 itto Ada before we had been long together. But it was not mine, andI did not feel that I had a right to tell it, even to my guardian,unless some great emergency arose. It was a weight to bear alone;still my present duty appeared to be plain, and blest in theattachment of my dear, I did not want an impulse and encouragementto do it. Though often when she was asleep and all was quiet, theremembrance of my mother kept me waking and made the nightsorrowful, I did not yield to it at another time; and Ada found mewhat I used to be--except, of course, in that particular of which Ihave said enough and which I have no intention of mentioning anymore just now, if I can help it.
The difficulty that I felt in being quite composed that firstevening when Ada asked me, over our work, if the family were at thehouse, and when I was obliged to answer yes, I believed so, forLady Dedlock had spoken to me in the woods the day beforeyesterday, was great. Greater still when Ada asked me what she hadsaid, and when I replied that she had been kind and interested, andwhen Ada, while admitting her beauty and elegance3, remarked uponher proud manner and her imperious chilling air. But Charleyhelped me through, unconsciously, by telling us that Lady Dedlockhad only stayed at the house two nights on her way from London tovisit at some other great house in the next county and that she hadleft early on the morning after we had seen her at our view, as wecalled it. Charley verified the adage4 about little pitchers5, I amsure, for she heard of more sayings and doings in a day than wouldhave come to my ears in a month.
We were to stay a month at Mr. Boythorn's. My pet had scarcelybeen there a bright week, as I recollect6 the time, when one eveningafter we had finished helping7 the gardener in watering his flowers,and just as the candles were lighted, Charley, appearing with avery important air behind Ada's chair, beckoned9 me mysteriously outof the room.
"Oh! If you please, miss," said Charley in a whisper, with her eyesat their roundest and largest. "You're wanted at the DedlockArms.""Why, Charley," said I, "who can possibly want me at the public-house?""I don't know, miss," returned Charley, putting her head forwardand folding her hands tight upon the band of her little apron,which she always did in the enjoyment11 of anything mysterious orconfidential, "but it's a gentleman, miss, and his compliments, andwill you please to come without saying anything about it.""Whose compliments, Charley?""His'n, miss," returned Charley, whose grammatical education wasadvancing, but not very rapidly.
"And how do you come to be the messenger, Charley?""I am not the messenger, if you please, miss," returned my littlemaid. "It was W. Grubble, miss.""And who is W. Grubble, Charley?""Mister Grubble, miss," returned Charley. "Don't you know, miss?
The Dedlock Arms, by W. Grubble," which Charley delivered as if shewere slowly spelling out the sign.
"Aye? The landlord, Charley?""Yes, miss. If you please, miss, his wife is a beautiful woman,but she broke her ankle, and it never joined. And her brother'sthe sawyer that was put in the cage, miss, and they expect he'lldrink himself to death entirely12 on beer," said Charley.
Not knowing what might be the matter, and being easily apprehensivenow, I thought it best to go to this place by myself. I badeCharley be quick with my bonnet13 and veil and my shawl, and havingput them on, went away down the little hilly street, where I was asmuch at home as in Mr. Boythorn's garden.
Mr. Grubble was standing14 in his shirt-sleeves at the door of hisvery clean little tavern15 waiting for me. He lifted off his hatwith both hands when he saw me coming, and carrying it so, as if itwere an iron vessel16 (it looked as heavy), preceded me along thesanded passage to his best parlour, a neat carpeted room with moreplants in it than were quite convenient, a coloured print of QueenCaroline, several shells, a good many tea-trays, two stuffed anddried fish in glass cases, and either a curious egg or a curiouspumpkin (but I don't know which, and I doubt if many people did)hanging from his ceiling. I knew Mr. Grubble very well by sight,from his often standing at his door. A pleasant-looking, stoutish,middle-aged17 man who never seemed to consider himself cozily dressedfor his own fire-side without his hat and top-boots, but who neverwore a coat except at church.
He snuffed the candle, and backing away a little to see how itlooked, backed out of the room--unexpectedly to me, for I was goingto ask him by whom he had been sent. The door of the oppositeparlour being then opened, I heard some voices, familiar in my earsI thought, which stopped. A quick light step approached the roomin which I was, and who should stand before me but Richard!
"My dear Esther!" he said. "My best friend!" And he really was sowarm-hearted and earnest that in the first surprise and pleasure ofhis brotherly greeting I could scarcely find breath to tell himthat Ada was well.
"Answering my very thoughts--always the same dear girl!" saidRichard, leading me to a chair and seating himself beside me.
I put my veil up, but not quite.
"Always the same dear girl!" said Richard just as heartily18 asbefore.
I put up my veil altogether, and laying my hand on Richard's sleeveand looking in his face, told him how much I thanked him for hiskind welcome and how greatly I rejoiced to see him, the more sobecause of the determination I had made in my illness, which I nowconveyed to him.
"My love," said Richard, "there is no one with whom I have agreater wish to talk than you, for I want you to understand me.""And I want you, Richard," said I, shaking my head, "to understandsome one else.""Since you refer so immediately to John Jarndyce," said Richard, "--I suppose you mean him?""Of course I do.""Then I may say at once that I am glad of it, because it is on thatsubject that I am anxious to be understood. By you, mind--you, mydear! I am not accountable to Mr. Jarndyce or Mr. Anybody."I was pained to find him taking this tone, and he observed it.
"Well, well, my dear," said Richard, "we won't go into that now. Iwant to appear quietly in your country-house here, with you undermy arm, and give my charming cousin a surprise. I suppose yourloyalty to John Jarndyce will allow that?""My dear Richard," I returned, "you know you would be heartilywelcome at his house--your home, if you will but consider it so;and you are as heartily welcome here!""Spoken like the best of little women!" cried Richard gaily19.
I asked him how he liked his profession.
"Oh, I like it well enough!" said Richard. "It's all right. Itdoes as well as anything else, for a time. I don't know that Ishall care about it when I come to be settled, but I can sell outthen and--however, never mind all that botheration at present."So young and handsome, and in all respects so perfectly20 theopposite of Miss Flite! And yet, in the clouded, eager, seekinglook that passed over him, so dreadfully like her!
"I am in town on leave just now," said Richard.
"Indeed?""Yes. I have run over to look after my--my Chancery interestsbefore the long vacation," said Richard, forcing a careless laugh.
"We are beginning to spin along with that old suit at last, Ipromise you."No wonder that I shook my head!
"As you say, it's not a pleasant subject." Richard spoke2 with thesame shade crossing his face as before. "Let it go to the fourwinds for to-night. Puff22! Gone! Who do you suppose is with me?""Was it Mr. Skimpole's voice I heard?""That's the man! He does me more good than anybody. What afascinating child it is!"I asked Richard if any one knew of their coming down together. Heanswered, no, nobody. He had been to call upon the dear oldinfant--so he called Mr. Skimpole--and the dear old infant had toldhim where we were, and he had told the dear old infant he was benton coming to see us, and the dear old infant had directly wanted tocome too; and so he had brought him. "And he is worth--not to sayhis sordid23 expenses--but thrice his weight in gold," said Richard.
"He is such a cheery fellow. No worldliness about him. Fresh andgreen-hearted!"I certainly did not see the proof of Mr. Skimpole's worldliness inhis having his expenses paid by Richard, but I made no remark aboutthat. Indeed, he came in and turned our conversation. He wascharmed to see me, said he had been shedding delicious tears of joyand sympathy at intervals24 for six weeks on my account, had neverbeen so happy as in hearing of my progress, began to understand themixture of good and evil in the world now, felt that he appreciatedhealth the more when somebody else was ill, didn't know but what itmight be in the scheme of things that A should squint25 to make Bhappier in looking straight or that C should carry a wooden leg tomake D better satisfied with his flesh and blood in a silkstocking.
"My dear Miss Summerson, here is our friend Richard," said Mr.
Skimpole, "full of the brightest visions of the future, which heevokes out of the darkness of Chancery. Now that's delightful,that's inspiriting, that's full of poetry! In old times the woodsand solitudes26 were made joyous27 to the shepherd by the imaginarypiping and dancing of Pan and the nymphs. This present shepherd,our pastoral Richard, brightens the dull Inns of Court by makingFortune and her train sport through them to the melodious28 notes ofa judgment29 from the bench. That's very pleasant, you know! Someill-conditioned growling30 fellow may say to me, 'What's the use ofthese legal and equitable31 abuses? How do you defend them?' Ireply, 'My growling friend, I DON'T defend them, but they are veryagreeable to me. There is a shepherd--youth, a friend of mine, whotransmutes them into something highly fascinating to my simplicity32.
I don't say it is for this that they exist--for I am a child amongyou worldly grumblers, and not called upon to account to you ormyself for anything--but it may be so.'"I began seriously to think that Richard could scarcely have found aworse friend than this. It made me uneasy that at such a time whenhe most required some right principle and purpose he should havethis captivating looseness and putting-off of everything, this airydispensing with all principle and purpose, at his elbow. I thoughtI could understand how such a nature as my guardian's, experiencedin the world and forced to contemplate33 the miserable34 evasions35 andcontentions of the family misfortune, found an immense relief inMr. Skimpole's avowal36 of his weaknesses and display of guilelesscandour; but I could not satisfy myself that it was as artless asit seemed or that it did not serve Mr. Skimpole's idle turn quiteas well as any other part, and with less trouble.
They both walked back with me, and Mr. Skimpole leaving us at thegate, I walked softly in with Richard and said, "Ada, my love, Ihave brought a gentleman to visit you." It was not difficult toread the blushing, startled face. She loved him dearly, and heknew it, and I knew it. It was a very transparent37 business, thatmeeting as cousins only.
I almost mistrusted myself as growing quite wicked in mysuspicions, but I was not so sure that Richard loved her dearly.
He admired her very much--any one must have done that--and I daresay would have renewed their youthful engagement with great prideand ardour but that he knew how she would respect her promise to myguardian. Still I had a tormenting38 idea that the influence uponhim extended even here, that he was postponing39 his best truth andearnestness in this as in all things until Jarndyce and Jarndyceshould be off his mind. Ah me! What Richard would have beenwithout that blight40, I never shall know now!
He told Ada, in his most ingenuous41 way, that he had not come tomake any secret inroad on the terms she had accepted (rather tooimplicitly and confidingly43, he thought) from Mr. Jarndyce, that hehad come openly to see her and to see me and to justify44 himself forthe present terms on which he stood with Mr. Jarndyce. As the dearold infant would be with us directly, he begged that I would makean appointment for the morning, when he might set himself rightthrough the means of an unreserved conversation with me. Iproposed to walk with him in the park at seven o'clock, and thiswas arranged. Mr. Skimpole soon afterwards appeared and made usmerry for an hour. He particularly requested to see littleCoavinses (meaning Charley) and told her, with a patriarchal air,that he had given her late father all the business in his power andthat if one of her little brothers would make haste to get set upin the same profession, he hoped he should still be able to put agood deal of employment in his way.
"For I am constantly being taken in these nets," said Mr. Skimpole,looking beamingly at us over a glass of wine-and-water, "and amconstantly being bailed45 out--like a boat. Or paid off--like aship's company. Somebody always does it for me. I can't do it,you know, for I never have any money. But somebody does it. I getout by somebody's means; I am not like the starling; I get out. Ifyou were to ask me who somebody is, upon my word I couldn't tellyou. Let us drink to somebody. God bless him!"Richard was a little late in the morning, but I had not to wait forhim long, and we turned into the park. The air was bright and dewyand the sky without a cloud. The birds sang delightfully46; thesparkles in the fern, the grass, and trees, were exquisite47 to see;the richness of the woods seemed to have increased twenty-foldsince yesterday, as if, in the still night when they had looked somassively hushed in sleep, Nature, through all the minute detailsof every wonderful leaf, had been more wakeful than usual for theglory of that day.
"This is a lovely place," said Richard, looking round. "None ofthe jar and discord48 of law-suits here!"But there was other trouble.
"I tell you what, my dear girl," said Richard, "when I get affairsin general settled, I shall come down here, I think, and rest.""Would it not be better to rest now?" I asked.
"Oh, as to resting NOW," said Richard, "or as to doing anythingvery definite NOW, that's not easy. In short, it can't be done; Ican't do it at least.""Why not?" said I.
"You know why not, Esther. If you were living in an unfinishedhouse, liable to have the roof put on or taken off--to be from topto bottom pulled down or built up--to-morrow, next day, next week,next month, next year--you would find it hard to rest or settle.
So do I. Now? There's no now for us suitors."I could almost have believed in the attraction on which my poorlittle wandering friend had expatiated49 when I saw again thedarkened look of last night. Terrible to think it bad in it also ashade of that unfortunate man who had died.
"My dear Richard," said I, "this is a bad beginning of ourconversation.""I knew you would tell me so, Dame50 Durden.""And not I alone, dear Richard. It was not I who cautioned youonce never to found a hope or expectation on the family curse.""There you come back to John Jarndyce!" said Richard impatiently.
"Well! We must approach him sooner or later, for he is the stapleof what I have to say, and it's as well at once. My dear Esther,how can you be so blind? Don't you see that he is an interestedparty and that it may be very well for him to wish me to knownothing of the suit, and care nothing about it, but that it may notbe quite so well for me?""Oh, Richard," I remonstrated51, "is it possible that you can everhave seen him and heard him, that you can ever have lived under hisroof and known him, and can yet breathe, even to me in thissolitary place where there is no one to hear us, such unworthysuspicions?"He reddened deeply, as if his natural generosity52 felt a pang53 ofreproach. He was silent for a little while before he replied in asubdued voice, "Esther, I am sure you know that I am not a meanfellow and that I have some sense of suspicion and distrust beingpoor qualities in one of my years.""I know it very well," said I. "I am not more sure of anything.""That's a dear girl," retorted Richard, "and like you, because itgives me comfort. I had need to get some scrap54 of comfort out ofall this business, for it's a bad one at the best, as I have nooccasion to tell you.""I know perfectly," said I. "I know as well, Richard--what shall Isay? as well as you do--that such misconstructions are foreign toyour nature. And I know, as well as you know, what so changes it.""Come, sister, come," said Richard a little more gaily, "you willbe fair with me at all events. If I have the misfortune to beunder that influence, so has he. If it has a little twisted me, itmay have a little twisted him too. I don't say that he is not anhonourable man, out of all this complication and uncertainty55; I amsure he is. But it taints56 everybody. You know it taintseverybody. You have heard him say so fifty times. Then why shouldHE escape?""Because," said I, "his is an uncommon57 character, and he hasresolutely kept himself outside the circle, Richard.""Oh, because and because!" replied Richard in his vivacious58 way.
"I am not sure, my dear girl, but that it may be wise and speciousto preserve that outward indifference59. It may cause other partiesinterested to become lax about their interests; and people may dieoff, and points may drag themselves out of memory, and many thingsmay smoothly60 happen that are convenient enough."I was so touched with pity for Richard that I could not reproachhim any more, even by a look. I remembered my guardian'sgentleness towards his errors and with what perfect freedom fromresentment he had spoken of them.
"Esther," Richard resumed, "you are not to suppose that I have comehere to make underhanded charges against John Jarndyce. I haveonly come to justify myself. What I say is, it was all very welland we got on very well while I was a boy, utterly61 regardless ofthis same suit; but as soon as I began to take an interest in itand to look into it, then it was quite another thing. Then JohnJarndyce discovers that Ada and I must break off and that if Idon't amend62 that very objectionable course, I am not fit for her.
Now, Esther, I don't mean to amend that very objectionable course:
I will not hold John Jarndyce's favour on those unfair terms ofcompromise, which he has no right to dictate63. Whether it pleaseshim or displeases64 him, I must maintain my rights and Ada's. I havebeen thinking about it a good deal, and this is the conclusion Ihave come to."Poor dear Richard! He had indeed been thinking about it a gooddeal. His face, his voice, his manner, all showed that tooplainly.
"So I tell him honourably65 (you are to know I have written to himabout all this) that we are at issue and that we had better be atissue openly than covertly66. I thank him for his goodwill67 and hisprotection, and he goes his road, and I go mine. The fact is, ourroads are not the same. Under one of the wills in dispute, Ishould take much more than he. I don't mean to say that it is theone to be established, but there it is, and it has its chance.""I have not to learn from you, my dear Richard," said I, "of yourletter. I had heard of it already without an offended or angryword.""Indeed?" replied Richard, softening68. "I am glad I said he was anhonourable man, out of all this wretched affair. But I always saythat and have never doubted it. Now, my dear Esther, I know theseviews of mine appear extremely harsh to you, and will to Ada whenyou tell her what has passed between us. But if you had gone intothe case as I have, if you had only applied69 yourself to the papersas I did when I was at Kenge's, if you only knew what anaccumulation of charges and counter-charges, and suspicions andcross-suspicions, they involve, you would think me moderate incomparison.""Perhaps so," said I. "But do you think that, among those manypapers, there is much truth and justice, Richard?""There is truth and justice somewhere in the case, Esther--""Or was once, long ago," said I.
"Is--is--must be somewhere," pursued Richard impetuously, "and mustbe brought out. To allow Ada to be made a bribe70 and hush-money ofis not the way to bring it out. You say the suit is changing me;John Jarndyce says it changes, has changed, and will changeeverybody who has any share in it. Then the greater right I haveon my side when I resolve to do all I can to bring it to an end.""All you can, Richard! Do you think that in these many years noothers have done all they could? Has the difficulty grown easierbecause of so many failures?""It can't last for ever," returned Richard with a fiercenesskindling in him which again presented to me that last sad reminder71.
"I am young and earnest, and energy and determination have donewonders many a time. Others have only half thrown themselves intoit. I devote myself to it. I make it the object of my life.""Oh, Richard, my dear, so much the worse, so much the worse!""No, no, no, don't you be afraid for me," he returnedaffectionately. "You're a dear, good, wise, quiet, blessed girl;but you have your prepossessions. So I come round to JohnJarndyce. I tell you, my good Esther, when he and I were on thoseterms which he found so convenient, we were not on natural terms.""Are division and animosity your natural terms, Richard?""No, I don't say that. I mean that all this business puts us onunnatural terms, with which natural relations are incompatible72.
See another reason for urging it on! I may find out when it's overthat I have been mistaken in John Jarndyce. My head may be clearerwhen I am free of it, and I may then agree with what you say to-day. Very well. Then I shall acknowledge it and make himreparation."Everything postponed73 to that imaginary time! Everything held inconfusion and indecision until then!
"Now, my best of confidantes," said Richard, "I want my cousin Adato understand that I am not captious74, fickle75, and wilful76 about JohnJarndyce, but that I have this purpose and reason at my back. Iwish to represent myself to her through you, because she has agreat esteem77 and respect for her cousin John; and I know you willsoften the course I take, even though you disapprove78 of it; and--and in short," said Richard, who had been hesitating through thesewords, "I--I don't like to represent myself in this litigious,contentious, doubting character to a confiding42 girl like Ada,"I told him that he was more like himself in those latter words thanin anything he had said yet.
"Why," acknowledged Richard, "that may be true enough, my love. Irather feel it to be so. But I shall be able to give myself fair-play by and by. I shall come all right again, then, don't you beafraid."I asked him if this were all he wished me to tell Ada.
"Not quite," said Richard. "I am bound not to withhold79 from herthat John Jarndyce answered my letter in his usual manner,addressing me as 'My dear Rick,' trying to argue me out of myopinions, and telling me that they should make no difference inhim. (All very well of course, but not altering the case.) I alsowant Ada to know that if I see her seldom just now, I am lookingafter her interests as well as my own--we two being in the sameboat exactly--and that I hope she will not suppose from any flyingrumours she may hear that I am at all light-headed or imprudent; onthe contrary, I am always looking forward to the termination of thesuit, and always planning in that direction. Being of age now andhaving taken the step I have taken, I consider myself free from anyaccountability to John Jarndyce; but Ada being still a ward10 of thecourt, I don't yet ask her to renew our engagement. When she isfree to act for herself, I shall be myself once more and we shallboth be in very different worldly circumstances, I believe. If youtell her all this with the advantage of your considerate way, youwill do me a very great and a very kind service, my dear Esther;and I shall knock Jarndyce and Jarndyce on the head with greatervigour. Of course I ask for no secrecy80 at Bleak81 House.""Richard," said I, "you place great confidence in me, but I fearyou will not take advice from me?""It's impossible that I can on this subject, my dear girl. On anyother, readily."As if there were any other in his life! As if his whole career andcharacter were not being dyed one colour!
"But I may ask you a question, Richard?""I think so," said he, laughing. "I don't know who may not, if youmay not.""You say, yourself, you are not leading a very settled life.""How can I, my dear Esther, with nothing settled!""Are you in debt again?""Why, of course I am," said Richard, astonished at my simplicity.
"Is it of course?""My dear child, certainly. I can't throw myself into an object socompletely without expense. You forget, or perhaps you don't know,that under either of the wills Ada and I take something. It's onlya question between the larger sum and the smaller. I shall bewithin the mark any way. Bless your heart, my excellent girl,"said Richard, quite amused with me, "I shall be all right! I shallpull through, my dear!"I felt so deeply sensible of the danger in which he stood that Itried, in Ada's name, in my guardian's, in my own, by every ferventmeans that I could think of, to warn him of it and to show him someof his mistakes. He received everything I said with patience andgentleness, but it all rebounded82 from him without taking the leasteffect. I could not wonder at this after the reception hispreoccupied mind had given to my guardian's letter, but Idetermined to try Ada's influence yet.
So when our walk brought us round to the village again, and I wenthome to breakfast, I prepared Ada for the account I was going togive her and told her exactly what reason we had to dread21 thatRichard was losing himself and scattering83 his whole life to thewinds. It made her very unhappy, of course, though she had a far,far greater reliance on his correcting his errors than I couldhave--which was so natural and loving in my dear!--and shepresently wrote him this little letter:
My dearest cousin,Esther has told me all you said to her this morning. I write thisto repeat most earnestly for myself all that she said to you and tolet you know how sure I am that you will sooner or later find ourcousin John a pattern of truth, sincerity84, and goodness, when youwill deeply, deeply grieve to have done him (without intending it)so much wrong.
I do not quite know how to write what I wish to say next, but Itrust you will understand it as I mean it. I have some fears, mydearest cousin, that it may be partly for my sake you are nowlaying up so much unhappiness for yourself--and if for yourself,for me. In case this should be so, or in case you should entertainmuch thought of me in what you are doing, I most earnestly entreatand beg you to desist. You can do nothing for my sake that willmake me half so happy as for ever turning your back upon the shadowin which we both were born. Do not be angry with me for sayingthis. Pray, pray, dear Richard, for my sake, and for your own, andin a natural repugnance85 for that source of trouble which had itsshare in making us both orphans86 when we were very young, pray,pray, let it go for ever. We have reason to know by this time thatthere is no good in it and no hope, that there is nothing to be gotfrom it but sorrow.
My dearest cousin, it is needless for me to say that you are quitefree and that it is very likely you may find some one whom you willlove much better than your first fancy. I am quite sure, if youwill let me say so, that the object of your choice would greatlyprefer to follow your fortunes far and wide, however moderate orpoor, and see you happy, doing your duty and pursuing your chosenway, than to have the hope of being, or even to be, very rich withyou (if such a thing were possible) at the cost of dragging yearsof procrastination87 and anxiety and of your indifference to otheraims. You may wonder at my saying this so confidently with solittle knowledge or experience, but I know it for a certainty frommy own heart.
Ever, my dearest cousin, your most affectionateAdaThis note brought Richard to us very soon, but it made littlechange in him if any. We would fairly try, he said, who was rightand who was wrong--he would show us--we should see! He wasanimated and glowing, as if Ada's tenderness had gratified him; butI could only hope, with a sigh, that the letter might have somestronger effect upon his mind on re-perusal than it assuredly hadthen.
As they were to remain with us that day and had taken their placesto return by the coach next morning, I sought an opportunity ofspeaking to Mr. Skimpole. Our out-of-door life easily threw one inmy way, and I delicately said that there was a responsibility inencouraging Richard.
"Responsibility, my dear Miss Summerson?" he repeated, catching88 atthe word with the pleasantest smile. "I am the last man in theworld for such a thing. I never was responsible in my life--Ican't be.""I am afraid everybody is obliged to be," said I timidly enough, hebeing so much older and more clever than I.
"No, really?" said Mr. Skimpole, receiving this new light with amost agreeable jocularity of surprise. "But every man's notobliged to be solvent89? I am not. I never was. See, my dear MissSummerson," he took a handful of loose silver and halfpence fromhis pocket, "there's so much money. I have not an idea how much.
I have not the power of counting. Call it four and ninepence--callit four pound nine. They tell me I owe more than that. I dare sayI do. I dare say I owe as much as good-natured people will let meowe. If they don't stop, why should I? There you have HaroldSkimpole in little. If that's responsibility, I am responsible."The perfect ease of manner with which he put the money up again andlooked at me with a smile on his refined face, as if he had beenmentioning a curious little fact about somebody else, almost mademe feel as if he really had nothing to do with it.
"Now, when you mention responsibility," he resumed, "I am disposedto say that I never had the happiness of knowing any one whom Ishould consider so refreshingly90 responsible as yourself. Youappear to me to be the very touchstone of responsibility. When Isee you, my dear Miss Summerson, intent upon the perfect working ofthe whole little orderly system of which you are the centre, I feelinclined to say to myself--in fact I do say to myself very often--THAT'S responsibility!"It was difficult, after this, to explain what I meant; but Ipersisted so far as to say that we all hoped he would check and notconfirm Richard in the sanguine91 views he entertained just then.
"Most willingly," he retorted, "if I could. But, my dear MissSummerson, I have no art, no disguise. If he takes me by the handand leads me through Westminster Hall in an airy procession afterfortune, I must go. If he says, 'Skimpole, join the dance!' Imust join it. Common sense wouldn't, I know, but I have NO commonsense92."It was very unfortunate for Richard, I said.
"Do you think so!" returned Mr. Skimpole. "Don't say that, don'tsay that. Let us suppose him keeping company with Common Sense--anexcellent man--a good deal wrinkled--dreadfully practical--changefor a ten-pound note in every pocket--ruled account-book in hishand--say, upon the whole, resembling a tax-gatherer. Our dearRichard, sanguine, ardent93, overleaping obstacles, bursting withpoetry like a young bud, says to this highly respectable companion,'I see a golden prospect94 before me; it's very bright, it's verybeautiful, it's very joyous; here I go, bounding over the landscapeto come at it!' The respectable companion instantly knocks himdown with the ruled account-book; tells him in a literal, prosaicway that he sees no such thing; shows him it's nothing but fees,fraud, horsehair wigs95, and black gowns. Now you know that's apainful change--sensible in the last degree, I have no doubt, butdisagreeable. I can't do it. I haven't got the ruled account-book, I have none of the tax-gatherlng elements in my composition,I am not at all respectable, and I don't want to be. Odd perhaps,but so it is!"It was idle to say more, so I proposed that we should join Ada andRichard, who were a little in advance, and I gave up Mr. Skimpolein despair. He had been over the Hall in the course of the morningand whimsically described the family pictures as we walked. Therewere such portentous96 shepherdesses among the Ladies Dedlock deadand gone, he told us, that peaceful crooks97 became weapons ofassault in their hands. They tended their flocks severely98 inbuckram and powder and put their sticking-plaster patches on toterrify commoners as the chiefs of some other tribes put on theirwar-paint. There was a Sir Somebody Dedlock, with a battle, asprung-mine, volumes of smoke, flashes of lightning, a town onfire, and a stormed fort, all in full action between his horse'stwo hind8 legs, showing, he supposed, how little a Dedlock made ofsuch trifles. The whole race he represented as having evidentlybeen, in life, what he called "stuffed people"--a large collection,glassy eyed, set up in the most approved manner on their varioustwigs and perches99, very correct, perfectly free from animation100, andalways in glass cases.
I was not so easy now during any reference to the name but that Ifelt it a relief when Richard, with an exclamation101 of surprise,hurried away to meet a stranger whom he first descried102 comingslowly towards us.
"Dear me!" said Mr. Skimpole. "Vholes!"We asked if that were a friend of Richard's.
"Friend and legal adviser," said Mr. Skimpole. "Now, my dear MissSummerson, if you want common sense, responsibility, andrespectability, all united--if you want an exemplary man--Vholes isTHE man."We had not known, we said, that Richard was assisted by anygentleman of that name.
"When he emerged from legal infancy," returned Mr. Skimpole, "heparted from our conversational103 friend Kenge and took up, I believe,with Vholes. Indeed, I know he did, because I introduced him toVholes.""Had you known him long?" asked Ada.
"Vholes? My dear Miss Clare, I had had that kind of acquaintancewith him which I have had with several gentlemen of his profession.
He had done something or other in a very agreeable, civil manner--taken proceedings104, I think, is the expression--which ended in theproceeding of his taking ME. Somebody was so good as to step inand pay the money--something and fourpence was the amount; I forgetthe pounds and shillings, but I know it ended with fourpence,because it struck me at the time as being so odd that I could oweanybody fourpence--and after that I brought them together. Vholesasked me for the introduction, and I gave it. Now I come to thinkof it," he looked inquiringly at us with his frankest smile as hemade the discovery, "Vholes bribed105 me, perhaps? He gave mesomething and called it commission. Was it a five-pound note? Doyou know, I think it MUST have been a five-pound note!"His further consideration of the point was prevented by Richard'scoming back to us in an excited state and hastily representing Mr.
Vholes--a sallow man with pinched lips that looked as if they werecold, a red eruption106 here and there upon his face, tall and thin,about fifty years of age, high-shouldered, and stooping. Dressedin black, black-gloved, and buttoned to the chin, there was nothingso remarkable107 in him as a lifeless manner and a slow, fixed108 way hehad of looking at Richard.
"I hope I don't disturb you, ladies," said Mr. Vholes, and now Iobserved that he was further remarkable for an inward manner ofspeaking. "I arranged with Mr. Carstone that he should always knowwhen his cause was in the Chancelor's paper, and being informed byone of my clerks last night after post time that it stood, ratherunexpectedly, in the paper for to-morrow, I put myself into thecoach early this morning and came down to confer with him.""Yes," said Richard, flushed, and looking triumphantly109 at Ada andme, "we don't do these things in the old slow way now. We spinalong now! Mr. Vholes, we must hire something to get over to thepost town in, and catch the mail to-night, and go up by it!""Anything you please, sir," returned Mr. Vholes. "I am quite atyour service.""Let me see," said Richard, looking at his watch. "If I run downto the Dedlock, and get my portmanteau fastened up, and order agig, or a chaise, or whatever's to be got, we shall have an hourthen before starting. I'll come back to tea. Cousin Ada, will youand Esther take care of Mr. Vholes when I am gone?"He was away directly, in his heat and hurry, and was soon lost inthe dusk of evening. We who were left walked on towards the house.
"Is Mr. Carstone's presence necessary to-morrow, Sir?" said I.
"Can it do any good?""No, miss," Mr. Vholes replied. "I am not aware that it can."Both Ada and I expressed our regret that he should go, then, onlyto be disappointed.
"Mr. Carstone has laid down the principle of watching his owninterests," said Mr. Vholes, "and when a client lays down his ownprinciple, and it is not immoral110, it devolves upon me to carry itout. I wish in business to be exact and open. I am a widower111 withthree daughters--Emma, Jane, and Caroline--and my desire is so todischarge the duties of life as to leave them a good name. Thisappears to be a pleasant spot, miss."The remark being made to me in consequence of my being next him aswe walked, I assented112 and enumerated113 its chief attractions.
"Indeed?" said Mr. Vholes. "I have the privilege of supporting anaged father in the Vale of Taunton--his native place--and I admirethat country very much. I had no idea there was anything soattractive here."To keep up the conversation, I asked Mr. Vholes if he would like tolive altogether in the country.
"There, miss," said he, "you touch me on a tender string. Myhealth is not good (my digestion114 being much impaired), and if I hadonly myself to consider, I should take refuge in rural habits,especially as the cares of business have prevented me from evercoming much into contact with general society, and particularlywith ladies' society, which I have most wished to mix in. But withmy three daughters, Emma, Jane, and Caroline--and my aged father--Icannot afford to be selfish. It is true I have no longer tomaintain a dear grandmother who died in her hundred and secondyear, but enough remains115 to render it indispensable that the millshould be always going."It required some attention to hear him on account of his inwardspeaking and his lifeless manner.
"You will excuse my having mentioned my daughters," he said. "Theyare my weak point. I wish to leave the poor girls some littleindependence, as well as a good name."We now arrived at Mr. Boythorn's house, where the tea-table, allprepared, was awaiting us. Richard came in restless and hurriedshortly afterwards, and leaning over Mr. Vholes's chair, whisperedsomething in his ear. Mr. Vholes replied aloud--or as nearly aloudI suppose as he had ever replied to anything--"You will drive me,will you, sir? It is all the same to me, sir. Anything youplease. I am quite at your service."We understood from what followed that Mr. Skimpole was to be leftuntil the morning to occupy the two places which had been alreadypaid for. As Ada and I were both in low spirits concerning Richardand very sorry so to part with him, we made it as plain as wepolitely could that we should leave Mr. Skimpole to the DedlockArms and retire when the night-travellers were gone.
Richard's high spirits carrying everything before them, we all wentout together to the top of the hill above the village, where he hadordered a gig to wait and where we found a man with a lanternstanding at the head of the gaunt pale horse that had beenharnessed to it.
I never shall forget those two seated side by side in the lantern'slight, Richard all flush and fire and laughter, with the reins116 inhis hand; Mr. Vholes quite still, black-gloved, and buttoned up,looking at him as if he were looking at his prey117 and charming it.
I have before me the whole picture of the warm dark night, thesummer lightning, the dusty track of road closed in by hedgerowsand high trees, the gaunt pale horse with his ears pricked118 up, andthe driving away at speed to Jarndyce and Jarndyce.
My dear girl told me that night how Richard's being thereafterprosperous or ruined, befriended or deserted119, could only make thisdifference to her, that the more he needed love from one unchangingheart, the more love that unchanging heart would have to give him;how he thought of her through his present errors, and she wouldthink of him at all times--never of herself if she could devoteherself to him, never of her own delights if she could minister tohis.
And she kept her word?
I look along the road before me, where the distance alreadyshortens and the journey's end is growing visible; and true andgood above the dead sea of the Chancery suit and all the ashy fruitit cast ashore120, I think I see my darling.
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117 prey | |
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119 deserted | |
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