Was Constance happy? Of course there was always something on her mind, something that had to be dealt with, either in the shop or in the house, something to employ all the skill and experience which she had acquired. Her life had much in it of laborious1 tedium--tedium never-ending and monotonous2. And both she and Samuel worked consistently hard, rising early, 'pushing forward,' as the phrase ran, and going to bed early from sheer fatigue3; week after week and month after month as season changed imperceptibly into season. In June and July it would happen to them occasionally to retire before the last silver of dusk was out of the sky. They would lie in bed and talk placidly4 of their daily affairs. There would be a noise in the street below. "Vaults5 closing!" Samuel would say, and yawn. "Yes, it's quite late," Constance would say. And the Swiss clock would rapidly strike eleven on its coil of resonant6 wire. And then, just before she went to sleep, Constance might reflect upon her destiny, as even the busiest and smoothest women do, and she would decide that it was kind. Her mother's gradual decline and lonely life at Axe7 saddened her. The cards which came now and then at extremely long intervals8 from Sophia had been the cause of more sorrow than joy. The naive9 ecstasies10 of her girlhood had long since departed--the price paid for experience and self-possession and a true vision of things. The vast inherent melancholy11 of the universe did not exempt12 her. But as she went to sleep she would be conscious of a vague contentment. The basis of this contentment was the fact that she and Samuel comprehended and esteemed13 each other, and made allowances for each other. Their characters had been tested and had stood the test. Affection, love, was not to them a salient phenomenon in their relations. Habit had inevitably14 dulled its glitter. It was like a flavouring, scarce remarked; but had it been absent, how they would have turned from that dish!
Samuel never, or hardly ever, set himself to meditate15 upon the problem whether or not life had come up to his expectations. But he had, at times, strange sensations which he did not analyze16, and which approached nearer to ecstasy17 than any feeling of Constance's. Thus, when he was in one of his dark furies, molten within and black without, the sudden thought of his wife's unalterable benignant calm, which nothing could overthrow18, might strike him into a wondering cold. For him she was astoundingly feminine. She would put flowers on the mantelpiece, and then, hours afterwards, in the middle of a meal, ask him unexpectedly what he thought of her 'garden;' and he gradually divined that a perfunctory reply left her unsatisfied; she wanted a genuine opinion; a genuine opinion mattered to her. Fancy calling flowers on a mantelpiece a 'garden'! How charming, how childlike! Then she had a way, on Sunday mornings, when she descended19 to the parlour all ready for chapel20, of shutting the door at the foot of the stairs with a little bang, shaking herself, and turning round swiftly as if for his inspection21, as if saying: "Well, what about this? Will this do?" A phenomenon always associated in his mind with the smell of kid gloves! Invariably she asked him about the colours and cut of her dresses. Would he prefer this, or that? He could not take such questions seriously until one day he happened to hint, merely hint, that he was not a thorough-going admirer of a certain new dress--it was her first new dress after the definite abandonment of crinolines. She never wore it again. He thought she was not serious at first, and remonstrated22 against a joke being carried too far. She said: "It's not a bit of use you talking, I shan't wear it again." And then he so far appreciated her seriousness as to refrain, by discretion23, from any comment. The incident affected24 him for days. It flattered him; it thrilled him; but it baffled him. Strange that a woman subject to such caprices should be so sagacious, capable, and utterly25 reliable as Constance was! For the practical and commonsense26 side of her eternally compelled his admiration27. The very first example of it--her insistence28 that the simultaneous absence of both of them from the shop for half an hour or an hour twice a day would not mean the immediate29 downfall of the business--had remained in his mind ever since. Had she not been obstinate--in her benevolent30 way--against the old superstition31 which he had acquired from his employers, they might have been eating separately to that day. Then her handling of her mother during the months of the siege of Paris, when Mrs. Baines was convinced that her sinful daughter was in hourly danger of death, had been extraordinarily32 fine, he considered. And the sequel, a card for Constance's birthday, had completely justified33 her attitude.
Sometimes some blundering fool would jovially34 exclaim to them:
"What about that baby?"
Or a woman would remark quietly: "I often feel sorry you've no children."
And they would answer that really they did not know what they would do if there was a baby. What with the shop and one thing or another ...! And they were quite sincere.
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