Crawford raised his head a moment where he sat in a willow2 chair by the window; then he lowered it once more into his hands. His face was bleak3 and empty. He did not know how long it was since he had come here, unable to face them out there.
When the creak of the porch came mutedly to him, he gave no sign. Then there was more sound, louder, more recognizable. His head lifted as the noise terminated with a muffled4 crash.
"Crawford!"
Just once like that, shrill5 and cracked. He got to his feet and ran to the door, tearing it open. It was the side table in the entrance hall which had made the crash. Merida must have pulled it over, falling. The marble top had smashed, and a piece of it lay on the floor beside her. The front door stood open wide.
"Merida?" he said, dropping to one knee. "You fell?"
"No." She stirred feebly, rising to one elbow with his help, hanging her head over against his knee a moment. The kitchen door opened, and her maid padded down the hall in bare feet, a small, wizened6 Indian, so dark she looked negroid, dressed in nothing more than a white cotton shift.
"It's all right, Nexpa," Merida told her. "A little accident. Crawford will help me to my room."
She allowed him to help her up the stairs, leaning heavily on his arm. The warmth of her body flowed through Crawford, and when they reached the second floor he was breathing heavily. Beyond the last step, Merida pulled away from him, her eyes meeting his in a swift, unreadable way.
She turned and moved toward her room, halting a moment outside Huerta's closed door, as if listening. Then she opened the door of her bedroom. He had kept from asking by an effort, but now he followed her in hesitantly, speaking.
"Huerta came up?"
She closed her door softly. "He wasn't at the corrals when I left."
"Maybe he got hungry for his red beans." Her face lifted to him, eyes widening, and he shrugged7. "Jacinto said something about dope."
She pursed her lips, moving around him toward the table. "Couldn't you see it? Opium8 when we were in Mexico City. Peyote now."
"Those beans."
"Yes. You've heard it. The Indians call it raíz diabólica. Devil weed. They've been using it for centuries in Mexico. Even the Aztecs knew of it. They called it peyotl. It's effect isn't as marked as opium. He seems capable of eating those beans all day. They make a drink of it that's more potent9."
"He said something about a complaint," Crawford told her.
Her mouth twisted somewhat. "Maybe he has an old wound. He's been around. He'd take dope anyway. That's just the kind he is. You saw the kind. Dissolute? I don't know. Whatever you want." She had got a punk off the table and was lighting10 the candles in the porcelain11 candelabra supported by oak wall brackets. Then she saw how he was looking at her, and turned part way. "What is it?"
He looked away. "Nothing."
She caught his arm, turning him back.
"No," she said. "It is something. Huerta?"
Crawford pulled away from her hand, uncomfortable, somehow. "I just can't see you with him. You're not the type."
"What type do you think I am?"
He started to answer. Then he moved his shoulders again, letting out a muted, rueful sound. "I guess I don't know, really, do I?"
"Santa Anna's chests?" he said.
She drew in a long, slow breath, and nodded, finally. "You do know, then," she murmured, almost inaudibly. "You have known, all along." She hesitated, studying him. When she spoke13 again, her voice was stronger. "That's inconceivable to you, isn't it?"
"No—"
"Yes!" She blew out the punk with the word. "You've lived in the brasada most of your life. Money to you represents no more than a barren, lonely ranch14 like this and a herd15 of cattle to support it. You have no conception of what riches can really mean. Not just the horses, the servants, the jewels. The grace, Crawford, the ease, the beauty, the way of life." An intensity16 had gripped her voice, and her face was flushed. "Do you know what it is to be a peon in Mexico? No. You've never seen it, have you? You've seen the women in the brush here, living like animals in a one-room mud house with nothing but a cotton sheet for a dress. That's nothing. They're rich. They're hidalgos compared with a real peon. I should know. I was one, Crawford. I won't be one again. I'd rather steal and lie and cheat. I'd rather murder. Can you understand that? I will, if it's necessary. I—"
She broke off, breathing deeply, looking wide-eyed up at him. Then a short bitter laugh escaped her, and she turned away, the line of her shoulders bowing faintly. Light drew a soft glow from the rich black hair drawn17 tightly across the back of her head. With a new understanding of the woman, he stepped in behind her.
"All right," he said.
The simple acceptance of that drew her around. They were standing18 so close her breast touched his when it stirred faintly to her breathing.
"You were going to tell me what happened downstairs," he murmured.
"Derrotero?" she said, watching his face narrowly.
It was an effort to keep it expressionless. "The map?"
"It's why Huerta wanted to keep you here in the first place," she said. "Quartel and Tarant were against it, but Huerta thought you had some reason for coming here. He was right, Crawford. Nothing else could make you take what they've been doing. You've got part of the derrotero, and you think one of us has the rest. Well, one of us has!"
She turned around and did something with the waist of her dress, beneath the fichu. When she turned back, she held a piece of torn, yellowed paper in her hand.
"There are three pieces to the map," she said. "This is one of them."
"Lopez?" he asked.
"Yes," she muttered. "Santa Anna had many wives. My mother was one. You will recall that the captain of the mule19 train sent one third of the map to Santa Anna himself. It was about all my mother got out of Santa Anna's estate when he died."
"Who was it downstairs?" he asked.
"He came from behind. It was dark. I did not see."
He stared at the section of paper a long time, scratching his dirty beard with a thumbnail. "Huerta's been trying to find out all along if I have the derrotero. The fact that he doesn't know for sure has kept him from making any definite move, one way or another. What would he do if he found out, for sure, one way or another?"
"Why should he find out?" she said.
"You're with Huerta."
"Am I?" she said, moving in close again. "Maybe I was."
"You tried that before," he said.
"No," she said hotly. "Will you never trust me, Crawford? I want to help you. Not just the map. That doesn't matter, now. Out there, with the trigueño. I'm sorry for what I called you."
"Maybe you were right," he said, bitterly.
"No! You're not a coward, intrinsically. Can't you see what they were doing? Maybe Huerta was the first to see how it was—about your legs. Now they all know. They're using it, Crawford. Quartel used it today. He shoved you up against the horse and held you there till you were half-crazy with panic. He knew you wouldn't fight him in that state. It wasn't fear of him that demoralized you. It was horrible to watch." She reached up to grasp his elbows with her hands, lifting her weight toward him. "But I've seen what you used to be, too. When you brought Whitehead back. No coward could have done that. Come back, with Whitehead that way, knowing what you would have to face, here. Do you realize what it did to me? To come out on the porch that morning and see you standing there beside Whitehead's body, knowing what it meant. It doesn't happen to a person often in her life, Crawford. That sort of feeling. Let me help you, Crawford. I want to. I can't if you don't trust me."
She was up against him now, almost sobbing20 it, and his hands had slid around her waist, the flesh hot and silken against his palm through her gown. For one last moment he tried to fight it. But he had fought so long, so alone, without anyone, and the warm resilience of her body against him filled Crawford with a giddy weakness.
"Merida," he muttered thickly, bending her back, "Merida—"
She pulled away, her face flushed. "I can't—if you don't trust me—"
He held her that way, breathing heavily, her back arched away from him by the pressure of her hands against his chest. He searched her wide, dark eyes, and found no guile21 there. Still filled with that desire and driven by it, he made a guttural, inarticulate sound, releasing her, and took one step to the bed, lowering himself on the embroidered22 muslin coverlet. He bent23 to take off his right Justin. The fancy stitching across the top of the boot unknotted, and he pulled it away from half a dozen eyelets in the leather, revealing a double thickness which formed a pocket.
"Used to keep my money here," he said, pulling out the piece of parchment Rockland had given him. The woman's hand trembled as she took it from him, laying it on the bed beside her piece, fitting them together. Then her pale finger crossed the map until it reached a word printed on his section. Her voice was no more than a whisper.
"Mogotes Serpientes."
"Yeah," he said, watching her. "Yeah. I never got around to using the map. Kenmare was on my tail a lot since I left San Antonio. I didn't take too much stock in the story anyway. Del never told me anything about it, and it was his uncle supposed to have been captain of that mule train. How did Rockland get hold of this portion?"
"Delcazar's uncle escaped to Mexico City, where he died, his effects being turned over to the family lawyer down there," she said. "Rockland originally wanted the Delcazar land up here for the water. He sent Tarant down to Mexico City to make sure there was nothing in the Delcazar papers which would prevent having clear title to the land when he got hold of it. Tarant found this part of the chart when he was going through those papers." She straightened slowly, allowing her gaze to reach his face. "Do you know who has the other piece, Crawford?"
"No," he said.
Her eyes grew blank; and he stood swiftly, grasping her hand. "I've trusted you, Merida. Now you've got to trust me. I don't know."
"It's got to be more than trust now," she said. "We're in it together, Crawford. If I'm to help you, you've got to help me. Will you?"
"Haven't I proved that?" he said, trying to pull her toward him with that hand. "Anything, Merida—"
She held back, calculation hardening the planes of her face. "Perhaps I should have said, can you?"
Just the feel of her wrist in his fingers that way, soft and satiny, started it up again in him, and he quit trying to pull her in, and took a step in toward her. "What horse you on now?"
"I mean, maybe you can't. Maybe you're incapable24 of it. You can't do much the way you are now, Crawford. You're only half a man. It's not just the horses any more. It's your whole life. Everything you do is affected25 by it. I've thought of trying to get you a gun. A dozen times. It would be hard, but I might be able to do it. To stay unarmed here, like this—" She put her free hand against his chest to stop him. "What good would it do, Crawford? If you'd had a gun, would you have used it today? Quartel carries one. Would you have pulled yours on him?"
No woman had ever affected him so violently before. Hardly aware of what she was saying, the blood pounding through his head, he sought to force her hand aside and bend his face to hers, wanting only to feel her against him again.
"Merida," he said, the blood so thick in his throat it made him sound strangled, "I told you—anything—"
She took a deep, ragged26 breath, and he could not tell whether she was fighting him or herself, now. "No, Crawford. It wouldn't be any different with a gun. Not the way you are now. A gun wouldn't do you any more good than your bare hands. Quartel wanted you to fight him with your hands. You wouldn't even do that. Nothing will do you any good until you can step on a horse again without feeling that pain in your legs—that fear." She forced herself away, saying it in a cold tone, "Africano?"
It was like throwing ice water on a fire. All his ardor27 disappeared before the abrupt28 clutch of fear that word engendered29 in him. He stiffened30 for a moment, still holding that one hand. Then he dropped it and stepped back, his mouth twisted. Just the word, like that. Just the name.
"Yes." The heavy rise and fall of Merida's breast abated31 as she studied him, the candor32 gone from her face now, a cold, critical speculation33 filling her eyes as she studied him. "Perhaps I was wrong, Crawford. Perhaps you can't help me. Perhaps I can't help you."
"No? Let me show you," he said desperately34.
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