There must have been days of friendly intercourse2 when it seemed we talked nothings and wandered and meandered3 among subjects, but always we had our eyes on one another. And afterwards I would spend long hours in recalling and analyzing4 those nothings, questioning their nothingness, making out of things too submerged and impalpable for the rough drags of recollection, promises and indications. I would invent ingenious things to say, things pushing out suddenly from nothingness to extreme significance. I rehearsed a hundred declarations.
It was easy for us to be very much together. We were very free that summer and life was all leisure. Lady Ladislaw was busied with her own concerns; she sometimes went away for two or three days leaving no one but an attenuated5 governess with even the shadow of a claim to interfere6 with Mary. Moreover she was used to seeing me with her children at Burnmore; we were still in her eyes no more than children.... And also perhaps she did not greatly mind if indeed we did a little fall in love together. To her that may have seemed a very natural and slight and transitory possibility....
One afternoon of warm shadows in the wood near the red-lacquered Chinese bridge, we two were alone together and we fell silent. I was trembling and full of a wild courage. I can feel now the exquisite7 surmise8, the doubt of that moment. Our eyes met. She looked up at me with an unwonted touch of fear in her expression and I laid my hands on her. She did not recoil9, she stood mute with her lips pressed together, looking at me steadfastly10. I can feel that moment now as a tremendous hesitation11, blank and yet full of light and life, like a clear sky in the moment before dawn....
She made a little move towards me. Impulsively12, with no word said, we kissed.
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1 perplexed | |
adj.不知所措的 | |
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n.性交;交流,交往,交际 | |
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(指溪流、河流等)蜿蜒而流( meander的过去式和过去分词 ) | |
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v.分析;分析( analyze的现在分词 );分解;解释;对…进行心理分析n.分析 | |
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5 attenuated | |
v.(使)变细( attenuate的过去式和过去分词 );(使)变薄;(使)变小;减弱 | |
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6 interfere | |
v.(in)干涉,干预;(with)妨碍,打扰 | |
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adj.精美的;敏锐的;剧烈的,感觉强烈的 | |
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v./n.猜想,推测 | |
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vi.退却,退缩,畏缩 | |
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10 steadfastly | |
adv.踏实地,不变地;岿然;坚定不渝 | |
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n.犹豫,踌躇 | |
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12 impulsively | |
adv.冲动地 | |
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