But I did not read the paper. I didn't want to read the paper. I only wanted just to sit back and enjoy the forgotten sensation of a well-lit bus. It was as though at one stride I had passed out of the long and bitter night of the black years into the careless past, or forward into the future when all the agony would be a tale that was told. One day, I said to myself, we shall think nothing of a bus like this. All the buses will be like this, and we shall go galumphing home at midnight through streets as bright as day. The gloom will have vanished from Trafalgar Square and the fairyland of Piccadilly Circus will glitter once more with ten thousand lights singing the praises of Oxo and Bovril and Somebody's cigarettes and Somebody else's pills. We shall look up at the stars and not fear them and at the moon and not be afraid. The newspaper will no longer be a chronicle of hell, nor slaughter12 the tyrannical occupation of our thoughts.
And as I sat in the magic bus and saturated13 myself with this intoxicating14 vision of the Eden that will come when the madness is past, I wondered what I should do on entering that blessed realm that was lost and that we yearn15 to regain16. Yes, I think I should fall on my knees. I think we shall all want to fall on our knees. What other attitude will there be for us? Even my barber will fall on his knees. "If I thought peace was coming to-morrow," he said firmly the other day, "I'd fall on my knees this very night." He spoke17 as though nothing but peace would induce him to do such a desperate, unheard-of thing. I tried to puzzle out his scheme of faith, but found it beyond me. It rather resembled the naked commercialism of King Theebaw, who when his favourite wife lay ill promised his gods most splendid gifts if she recovered, and when she died brought up a park of artillery18 and blew their temple down. But my barber, nevertheless, had the root of the matter in him, and I would certainly follow his example.
But then—what then? Well I should want to get on to some high and solitary19 place—alone, or with just one companion who knows when to be silent and when to talk—there to cleanse20 my soul of this debauch21 of horror. I would take the midnight train and ho! for Keswick. And in the dawn of a golden day—it must be a golden day—I would see the sun
Flatter the mountain tops with sovran eye
and set out by the lapping waves of Derwentwater for glorious Sty Head and hear the murmurs22 from Glaramara's inmost caves and scramble23 up Great Gable and over by Eskhause and Scafell and down into the green pastures of Langdale. And there in that sanctuary24 with its starry25 dome26 and its encompassing27 hills I should find the thing I sought.
Then, like the barber, I shall be moved to do something desperate. I shall want some oblation28 to lay on the altar, and if I know my companion he will not have forgotten his hundred foot of rope or his craft of the mountains and together we will
Leave our rags on Pavey Ark,
Our cards on Pillar grim.
And then, the consecration29 and the offering complete, back to the world that is shuddering30, white-faced and wondering, into its Paradise Regained31.... Why, here is St. John's Wood already. And Lord's! Of course, I must have a day at Lord's. It will be a part of the ritual of reconciliation32. The old players will not be there, for the gulf33 with the past is wide and the bones of many a great artist lie on distant fields. But we must recapture their music and pay homage34 to their memory. Yes, I will take my lunch to Lord's—or perchance the Oval—and sit in the sunshine and hear the merry tune35 of bat and ball, and walk over the greensward in the interval36 and look at the wicket, and talk for a whole day with my companion of the giants of old and of the doughty37 things we have seen them do. Haig and Hindenburg, Tirpitz and Jellicoe, all the names that have filled our nightmare shall be forgotten: there shall fall from our lips none but the names of the goodly game—"W.G." and Ranji, Johnny Briggs and Lohmann, Spofforth and Bonner, Ulyett and Barnes (a brace38 of them) and all the jolly host. We'll not forget one of them. Not one. For a whole day we will go it, hammer and tongs39.
And there are ever so many more things I shall want to do. I shall want to go and see the chestnuts40 at Bushey Park on Chestnut41 Sunday. I shall want to send Christmas cards, and light bonfires on the Fifth, and make my young friends April fools on the First, and feel what a tennis racket is like, and have hot cross buns on Good Friday and pancakes on Shrove Tuesday. I shall want to go and sit on the sands and hear nigger minstrels again, and talk about the prospects42 of the Boat Race, and take up all the pleasant threads of life that fell from our hands nearly four years ago. In short, I shall plunge43 into all the old harmless gaieties that we have forgotten, have no time for, no heart for, no use for to-day.
But the bus has stopped and I am turned out of Eden into the snow and the slush and the never-ending night. The magic chariot goes on with its blazing lights, and a bend in the road quenches44 the pleasant vision in darkness.
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