Which Leaves Affairs in General in a Scarcely More Satisfactory Position than the Former One.
FERDINAND felt much calmer in his mind after this conversation with his cousin. Her affectionate attention to him now, instead of filling him as it did before with remorse1, was really a source of consolation2, if that be not too strong a phrase to describe the state of one so thoroughly3 wretched as Captain Armine; for his terrible illness and impending4 death had not in the slightest degree allayed5 or affected6 his profound passion for Henrietta Temple. Her image unceasingly engaged his thoughts; he still clung to the wild idea that she might yet be his. But his health improved so slowly, that there was faint hope of his speedily taking any steps to induce such a result. All his enquiries after her, and Glastonbury, at his suggestion, had not been idle, were quite fruitless. He made no doubt that she had quitted England. What might not happen, far away from him, and believing herself betrayed and deserted7? Often when he brooded over these terrible contingencies8, he regretted his recovery.
Yet his family, thanks to the considerate conduct of his admirable cousin, were still contented9 and happy. His slow convalescence10 was now their only source of anxiety. They regretted the unfavourable season of the year; they looked forward with hope to the genial11 influence of the coming spring. That was to cure all their cares; and yet they might well suspect, when they watched his ever pensive12, and often suffering countenance13, that there were deeper causes than physical debility and bodily pain to account for that moody14 and woe-begone expression. Alas15! how changed from that Ferdinand Armine, so full of hope, and courage, and youth, and beauty, that had burst on their enraptured16 vision on his return from Malta. Where was that gaiety now that made all eyes sparkle, that vivacious17 spirit that kindled18 energy in every bosom19? How miserable20 to see him crawling about with a wretched stick, with his thin, pale face, and tottering21 limbs, and scarcely any other pursuit than to creep about the pleasaunce, where, when the day was fair, his servant would place a camp-stool opposite the cedar22 tree where he had first beheld23 Henrietta Temple; and there he would sit, until the unkind winter breeze would make him shiver, gazing on vacancy24; yet peopled to his mind’s eye with beautiful and fearful apparitions25.
And it is love, it is the most delightful26 of human passions, that can bring about such misery27! Why will its true course never run smooth? Is there a spell over our heart, that its finest emotions should lead only to despair? When Ferdinand Armine, in his reveries, dwelt upon the past; when he recalled the hour that he had first seen her, her first glance, the first sound of her voice, his visit to Ducie, all the passionate28 scenes to which it led, those sweet wanderings through its enchanted29 bowers30, those bright mornings, so full of expectation that was never baulked, those soft eyes, so redolent of tenderness that could never cease; when from the bright, and glowing, and gentle scenes his memory conjured31 up, and all the transport and the thrill that surrounded them like an atmosphere of love, he turned to his shattered and broken-hearted self, the rigid32 heaven above, and what seemed to his perhaps unwise and ungrateful spirit, the mechanical sympathy and common-place affection of his companions, it was as if he had wakened from some too vivid and too glorious dream, or as if he had fallen from some brighter and more favoured planet upon our cold, dull earth.
And yet it would seem the roof of Armine Place protected a family that might yield to few in the beauty and engaging qualities of its inmates33, their happy accomplishments34, their kind and cordial hearts. And all were devoted35 to him. It was on him alone the noble spirit of his father dwelt still with pride and joy: it was to soothe36 and gratify him that his charming mother exerted all her graceful37 care and all her engaging gifts. It was for him, and his sake, the generous heart of his cousin had submitted to mortification38 without a murmur39, or indulged her unhappiness only in solitude40; and it was for him that Glastonbury exercised a devotion that might alone induce a man to think with complacency both of his species and himself. But the heart, the heart, the jealous and despotic heart! It rejects all substitutes, it spurns41 all compromise, and it will have its purpose or it will break.
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