She was followed by her French chamber-maid, Madeleine, a native of Strassburg, who had grown old in the family. In her youth, she had been poor,--and virtuous9 because she had never been tempted10; and, now that she had grown old, and seen no immediate11 reward for her virtue12, as is usual with weak minds, she despaired of Providence13, and regretted she had never been tempted. Whilst this unfortunate personage was lighting14 the wax tapers15 on the toilet, and drawing the bed-curtains, and tattling about the room, Emma threw herself into an arm-chair, and, crossing her hands in her lap, and letting her head fall upon her bosom16, seemed lost in a dream.
"Why have these gentle feelings been given me!" said she in her heart. "Why have I been born with all these warm affections,--these ardent17 longings18 after what is good, if they lead only to sorrow and disappointment? I would love some one;--love him once and forever;--devote myselfto him alone,--live for him,--die for him,-- exist alone in him! But alas19! in all this wide world there is none to love me, as I would be loved,--none whom I may love, as I am capable of loving. How empty, how desolate20, seems the world about me! Why has Heaven given me these affections, only to fall and fade!"
Alas! poor child! thou too must learn like others, that the sublime21 mystery of Providence goes on in silence, and gives no explanation of itself,--no answer to our impatient questionings!
"Bless me, child, what ails22 you?" exclaimed Madeleine, perceiving that Emma paid no attention to her idle gossip. "When I was of your age--"
"Do not talk to me now, good Madeleine. Leave me, I wish to be alone?"
"Well, here is something," continued the maid, taking a billet from her bosom, "which I hope will enliven you. When I was of your age--"
"Hush23! hush!" said Emma, taking the billetfrom the hard hand of Madeleine. "Once more I beg you, leave me! I wish to be alone!"
Madeleine took the lamp and retired24 slowly, wishing her young mistress many good nights and rosy25 dreams. Emma broke the seal of the note. As she read, her face became deadly pale, and then, as quick as thought, a crimson26 blush gleamed on her cheek, and her hands trembled. Tenderness, pity, love, offended pride, the weakness and dignity of woman, were all mingled27 in her look, changing and passing over her fine countenance28 like cloud-shadows. She sunk back in her chair, covering her face with her hands, as if she would hide it from herself and Heaven.
"He loves me!" said she to herself; "loves me; and is married to another, whom he loves not! and dares to tell me this! O, never,-- never,--never! And yet he is so friendless and alone in this unsympathizing world,--and an exile, and homeless! I can but pity him;--yet I hate him, and will see him no more!"
This short reverie of love and hate was brokenby the sound of a clear, mellow29 voice, which, in the universal stillness of the hour, seemed almost like the voice of a spirit. It was a voice, without the accompaniment of any instrument, singing those sweet lines of Goethe;
"Under the tree-tops is quiet now!
In all the woodlands hearest thou
Not a sound!
The little birds are asleep in the trees,
Wait! wait! and soon like these,
Sleepest thou!"
Emma knew the voice and started. She rushed to the window to close it. It was a beautiful night, and the stars were shining peacefully over the mountain of All-Saints. The sound of the Neckar was soft and low, and nightingales were singing among the brown shadows of the woods. The large red moon shone, like a ruby30, in the horizon's ample ring; and golden threads of light seemed braided together with the rippling31 current of the river. Tall and spectral32 stood the white statues on the bridge. The outline of thehills, the castle, the arches of the bridge, and the spires33 and roofs of the town were as strongly marked as if cut out of pasteboard. Amid this fairy scene, a little boat was floating silently down the stream. Emma closed the window hastily, and drew the curtains close.
"I hate him; and yet I will pray for him," said she, as she laid her weary head upon that pillow, from which, but a few months before, she thought she should never raise it again. "O, that I had died then! I dare not love him, but I will pray for him!"
Sweet child! If the face of the deceiver comes so often between thee and Heaven, I tremble for thy fate! The plant that sprang from Helen's tears destroyed serpents;--would that from thine might spring up heart's-ease;--some plant, at least, to destroy the serpents in thy bosom. Believe me, upon the margin34 of celestial35 streams alone, those simples grow, which cure the heartache!
And this the silent stars beheld36, looking downfrom heaven, and told it not again. This, likewise, the Frau Himmelhahn beheld, looking from her chamber-window, and was not so discreet37 as the silent stars.
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