“Old age and remorse3, my girl,” her aunt assured her. “Thinking of all the things I’ve done I might better not have done, or have done differently.”
“Why, any one can do that,” Mermaid answered. “I looked for you to develop some interesting ailment4, Aunt Keturah, something new and original that I might exercise my knowledge upon. I am now certified5 to be competent to analyze6 you. I know all the diets. If there is anything you’d like particularly to eat, don’t eat it.”
“You remind me of John Pogginson of Patchogue,” protested Mrs. Hand. “An up-to-date doctor put him on a diet some time ago. But instead of telling John what he couldn’t eat he gave him a list of all the things he could eat. There were eighty-seven of them;[178] and in the eighty-seven were things John Pogginson had never heard of. He had a wonderful time. But his wife almost died of indigestion. She said it wasn’t what she ate, but seeing the things John could eat, that made her ill.”
The two women sat down that night for what Keturah called “a long talk.” Mrs. Hand wanted first to discuss Mermaid’s plans; but Mermaid said she hadn’t any.
“Thanks to you,” she told her aunt, “I’ve been able to get what I wanted; but I confess I don’t know yet what I want to do with it. I want to go to work, of course, and I hope I can get into experimental work of some kind. Perhaps at the Rockefeller Institute, perhaps elsewhere. Chemicals won’t cure all the ills flesh is heir to, but they will cure a lot more than we know about. I don’t care about a career, that is, I don’t care about making a world-startling discovery or getting particularly rich or especially famous. I do care about getting a reasonable amount of happiness and satisfaction out of life; and that means being busy at something congenial to you. And going ahead a little in one direction or another.”
“I hope you’ll marry,” said Mrs. Hand, abruptly7.
“I hope so, too,” assented8 Mermaid. “If I can be so fortunate as to find the right man, or if some man can be fortunate enough to find me the right woman, or—well, both. We’ve both got to find each other, I suppose.”
[179]“Children,” said Mrs. Hand, with condensation9.
“The more the merrier.” Mermaid did not speak lightly. Some deepening of her voice took all the flippancy10 from the words.
“You’ll have money, my money,” pursued Keturah Hand. “Eventually; it goes to John first. He’s a good brother to me and he’s been a good father to you, as good as he could have been to his own flesh and blood. You know the story?” she asked, with harsh suddenness.
“Dad has told me,” Mermaid replied, quietly. “It is so many years ago that he has no thought but that his wife and his own daughter are dead.”
“I have something to answer for in that connection,” her aunt said, and in spite of the harshness with which she spoke11, her voice trembled. “I made Mary Smiley, that was Mary Rogers, very unhappy. I thought her unfit to be John’s wife. I—I rubbed it into her that she was unfit. Little, silly, childish, frivolous12 creature. How much I am to blame for her running away with her baby I don’t know—never shall, I suppose, until the time comes to answer for it.”
“Whatever you said to her, the facts remain,” the girl commented. “Actions not only speak louder than words, they talk the universal language. She ran away.”
“I think John felt that,” said Keturah. “He has a strict sense of justice and she wronged it. It was the child. That cut him to the heart, and no wonder.[180] After five years you were washed ashore13. I’ve always believed in miracles since that day.”
Mermaid nodded.
“When you study science, Aunt,” she said, confidingly14, “you come to believe in miracles as a matter of course. That is, unless you have one of these impossible minds that thinks a thing more wonderful than the explanation. It’s the explanation of everything that’s really miraculous15. For instance, you used to scoff16 at Dad and myself because we saw ghosts. There was the Duneswoman——”
“You wrote me that it was an effect of phosphor——” Mrs. Hand paused, helplessly.
“Phosphorescence,” supplied Mermaid, “the wonderful glow you see sometimes in sea water. It’s rare as far north as this but very common in the tropics. But to say it is an effect of phosphorescence doesn’t explain it, except to the impossible, narrow little mind. The real explanation lies in the mind of the person seeing it. If it were just a peculiar17 phosphorescent outline everybody should see it—everybody who was around. Dad and I see it; the others don’t. Do you know why?”
Keturah hesitated, then shook her head.
“It is something in common,” Mermaid told her. “There is, or was, someone who knew us both, and who becomes manifest to us both in that way. It’s like two people seeing the same ghost. Why should the ghost[181] appear in that way? I can’t tell you. Perhaps the person was drowned. Why should the Duneswoman appear to us at all? Perhaps to witness to something. We may never discover what; and then again the day may come when that vision will be the last impalpable evidence necessary to make something clear. Then the Duneswoman may make complete the explanation of a surprising but perfectly18 ordinary set of facts; and the explanation, and not the facts themselves, will make up the miracle.”
“I guess likely you’re right enough,” surmised19 Mrs. Hand, “though I’m not sure I follow you all through. I’m a matter-of-fact kind of a person. That’s why any one like Captain Vanton gives me the creeps and gets on my nerves so. I don’t know what he does to that wife of his, or what he has done, but I don’t wonder we never see anything of her. She must be a wreck20, living with that man. And he’s ruining that boy.”
“Guy?” asked Mermaid. A quick ear would have caught the peculiar note in her voice.
“Guy goes around with a hang-dog look. He never speaks to any one. He lives like a hermit21, and his father’ll make him as bad as himself,” stated Keturah, with conviction.
“I must go see him,” said the girl. Her voice was deep and vibrant22. “I must see his father.”
“His father has got Aunt Keturah’s jewels,” announced Mrs. Hand. “I’ve been sure of it ever since[182] the day they disappeared over to the beach. How he knew about them I don’t pretend to say; but as he followed Captain John Hawkins in the command of the China Castle he must have come to knowledge of them some way or other. Do you remember when you were not more than eleven his coming to call here?”
“I’ve never forgotten it.”
“He said a Captain King was dead and that he had killed him. He said this Captain King wouldn’t trouble us any longer—your father and me. Your father remembered then that one of the crew from the wreck of the ship, the ship you were saved from, had talked of a Captain King when he was dying and of a little girl that must have been you. So we thought—your father thought, anyway—that Captain Vanton might have known something about you.” She reached over and took Mermaid’s hand, awkwardly. “He went to see him, but Captain Vanton couldn’t or wouldn’t tell him anything.” Keturah paused and sighed.
“Captain Vanton told Dickie Hand’s father about the death of Captain King,” said Mermaid, surprising her aunt. “Dickie once told me so.”
“I want to know!” exclaimed Keturah. She was silent for several moments in busy speculation23.
“What do you make of it all?” she asked, finally, lifting her head. Mermaid, who had been looking steadfastly24 at the wall, her hands clasped behind her head, the whiteness of her arm gleaming against the[183] rich colouring of her hair, spoke without looking at her aunt, without shifting her pose.
“I make something of it,” she said, “and I am going to find out—something. I may not find out the truth of it all, but I will at least find out if I am wrong.”
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frivolous
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ashore
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miraculous
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peculiar
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perfectly
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surmised
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hermit
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