It was always rather quiet at Cocker’s while the contingent1 from Ladle’s and Thrupp’s and all the other great places were at luncheon2, or, as the young men used vulgarly to say, while the animals were feeding. She had forty minutes in advance of this to go home for her own dinner; and when she came back and one of the young men took his turn there was often half an hour during which she could pull out a bit of work or a book — a book from the place where she borrowed novels, very greasy3, in fine print and all about fine folks, at a ha’penny a day. This sacred pause was one of the numerous ways in which the establishment kept its finger on the pulse of fashion and fell into the rhythm of the larger life. It had something to do, one day, with the particular flare4 of importance of an arriving customer, a lady whose meals were apparently5 irregular, yet whom she was destined6, she afterwards found, not to forget. The girl was blasee; nothing could belong more, as she perfectly7 knew, to the intense publicity8 of her profession; but she had a whimsical mind and wonderful nerves; she was subject, in short, to sudden flickers9 of antipathy10 and sympathy, red gleams in the grey, fitful needs to notice and to “care,” odd caprices of curiosity. She had a friend who had invented a new career for women — that of being in and out of people’s houses to look after the flowers. Mrs. Jordan had a manner of her own of sounding this allusion11; “the flowers,” on her lips, were, in fantastic places, in happy homes, as usual as the coals or the daily papers. She took charge of them, at any rate, in all the rooms, at so much a month, and people were quickly finding out what it was to make over this strange burden of the pampered12 to the widow of a clergyman. The widow, on her side, dilating13 on the initiations thus opened up to her, had been splendid to her young friend, over the way she was made free of the greatest houses — the way, especially when she did the dinner-tables, set out so often for twenty, she felt that a single step more would transform her whole social position. On its being asked of her then if she circulated only in a sort of tropical solitude14, with the upper servants for picturesque15 natives, and on her having to assent16 to this glance at her limitations, she had found a reply to the girl’s invidious question. “You’ve no imagination, my dear!” — that was because a door more than half open to the higher life couldn’t be called anything but a thin partition. Mrs. Jordan’s imagination quite did away with the thickness.
Our young lady had not taken up the charge, had dealt with it good-humouredly, just because she knew so well what to think of it. It was at once one of her most cherished complaints and most secret supports that people didn’t understand her, and it was accordingly a matter of indifference17 to her that Mrs. Jordan shouldn’t; even though Mrs. Jordan, handed down from their early twilight18 of gentility and also the victim of reverses, was the only member of her circle in whom she recognised an equal. She was perfectly aware that her imaginative life was the life in which she spent most of her time; and she would have been ready, had it been at all worth while, to contend that, since her outward occupation didn’t kill it, it must be strong indeed. Combinations of flowers and green-stuff, forsooth! What she could handle freely, she said to herself, was combinations of men and women. The only weakness in her faculty19 came from the positive abundance of her contact with the human herd20; this was so constant, it had so the effect of cheapening her privilege, that there were long stretches in which inspiration, divination21 and interest quite dropped. The great thing was the flashes, the quick revivals22, absolute accidents all, and neither to be counted on nor to be resisted. Some one had only sometimes to put in a penny for a stamp and the whole thing was upon her. She was so absurdly constructed that these were literally23 the moments that made up — made up for the long stiffness of sitting there in the stocks, made up for the cunning hostility24 of Mr. Buckton and the importunate25 sympathy of the counter-clerk, made up for the daily deadly flourishy letter from Mr. Mudge, made up even for the most haunting of her worries, the rage at moments of not knowing how her mother did “get it.”
She had surrendered herself moreover of late to a certain expansion of her consciousness; something that seemed perhaps vulgarly accounted for by the fact that, as the blast of the season roared louder and the waves of fashion tossed their spray further over the counter, there were more impressions to be gathered and really — for it came to that — more life to be led. Definite at any rate it was that by the time May was well started the kind of company she kept at Cocker’s had begun to strike her as a reason — a reason she might almost put forward for a policy of procrastination26. It sounded silly, of course, as yet, to plead such a motive27, especially as the fascination28 of the place was after all a sort of torment29. But she liked her torment; it was a torment she should miss at Chalk Farm. She was ingenious and uncandid, therefore, about leaving the breadth of London a little longer between herself and that austerity. If she hadn’t quite the courage in short to say to Mr. Mudge that her actual chance for a play of mind was worth any week the three shillings he desired to help her to save, she yet saw something happen in the course of the month that in her heart of hearts at least answered the subtle question. This was connected precisely30 with the appearance of the memorable31 lady.
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