“Were you afraid, Fedya?” asked the mother.
He turned pale, his face sharpened, and his nostrils1 quivered.
“I was afraid the officer might strike me. He has a black beard, he’s stout2, his fingers are hairy, and he wears dark glasses, so that he looks as if he were without eyes. He shouted and stamped his feet. He said I’d rot in prison. And I’ve never been beaten either by my father or mother; they love me because I’m their only son. Everyone gets beaten everywhere, but I never!”
He closed his eyes for a moment, compressed his lips, tossed his hair back with a quick gesture of both hands, and looking at Pavel with reddening eyes, said:
“If anybody ever strikes me, I will thrust my whole body into him like a knife — I will bite my teeth into him — I’d rather he’d kill me at once and be done!”
“To defend yourself is your right,” said Pavel. “But take care not to attack!”
“You are delicate and thin,” observed the mother. “What do you want with fighting?”
“I WILL fight!” answered Fedya in a low voice.
When he left, the mother said to Pavel:
“This young man will go down sooner than all the rest.”
Pavel was silent.
A few minutes later the kitchen door opened slowly and Rybin entered.
“Good evening!” he said, smiling. “Here I am again. Yesterday they brought me here; to-day I come of my own accord. Yes, yes!” He gave Pavel a vigorous handshake, then put his hand on the mother’s shoulder, and asked: “Will you give me tea?”
Pavel silently regarded his swarthy, broad countenance4, his thick, black beard, and dark, intelligent eyes. A certain gravity spoke5 out of their calm gaze; his stalwart figure inspired confidence.
The mother went into the kitchen to prepare the samovar. Rybin sat down, stroked his beard, and placing his elbows on the table, scanned Pavel with his dark look.
“That’s the way it is,” he said, as if continuing an interrupted conversation. “I must have a frank talk with you. I observed you long before I came. We live almost next door to each other. I see many people come to you, and no drunkenness, no carrying on. That’s the main thing. If people don’t raise the devil, they immediately attract attention. What’s that? There you are! That’s why all eyes are on me, because I live apart and give no offense6.”
His speech flowed along evenly and freely. It had a ring that won him confidence.
“So. Everybody prates7 about you. My masters call you a heretic; you don’t go to church. I don’t, either. Then the papers appeared, those leaflets. Was it you that thought them out?”
“Yes, I!” answered Pavel, without taking his eyes off Rybin’s face. Rybin also looked steadily8 into Pavel’s eyes.
“You alone!” exclaimed the mother, coming into the room. “It wasn’t you alone.”
Pavel smiled; Rybin also.
The mother sniffed9, and walked away, somewhat offended because they did not pay attention to her words.
“Those leaflets are well thought out. They stir the people up. There were twelve of them, weren’t there?”
“Yes.”
“I have read them all! Yes, yes. Sometimes they are not clear, and some things are superfluous10. But when a man speaks a great deal, it’s natural he should occasionally say things out of the way.”
Rybin smiled. His teeth were white and strong.
“Then the search. That won me over to you more than anything else. You and the Little Russian and Nikolay, you all got caught!” He paused for the right word and looked at the window, rapping the table with his fingers. “They discovered your resolve. You attend to your business, your honor, you say, and we’ll attend to ours. The Little Russian’s a fine fellow, too. The other day I heard how he speaks in the factory, and thinks I to myself: that man isn’t going to be vanquished11; it’s only one thing will knock him out, and that’s death! A sturdy chap! Do you trust me, Pavel?”
“Yes, I trust you!” said Pavel, nodding.
“That’s right. Look! I am forty years old; I am twice as old as you, and I’ve seen twenty times as much as you. For three years long I wore my feet to the bone marching in the army. I have been married twice. I’ve been in the Caucasus, I know the Dukhobors. They’re not masters of life, no, they aren’t!”
The mother listened eagerly to his direct speech. It pleased her to have an older man come to her son and speak to him just as if he were confessing to him. But Pavel seemed to treat the guest too curtly12, and the mother, to introduce a softer element, asked Rybin:
“Maybe you’ll have something to eat.”
“Thank you, mother! I’ve had my supper already. So then, Pavel, you think that life does not go as it should?”
Pavel arose and began to pace the room, folding his hands behind his back.
“It goes all right,” he said. “Just now, for instance, it has brought you here to me with an open heart. We who work our whole life long — it unites us gradually and more and more every day. The time will come when we shall all be united. Life is arranged unjustly for us and is made a burden. At the same time, however, life itself is opening our eyes to its bitter meaning and is itself showing man the way to accelerate its pace. We all of us think just as we live.”
“True. But wait!” Rybin stopped him. “Man ought to be renovated13 — that’s what I think! When a man grows scabby, take him to the bath, give him a thorough cleaning, put clean clothes on him — and he will get well. Isn’t it so? And if the heart grows scabby, take its skin off, even if it bleeds, wash it, and dress it up all afresh. Isn’t it so? How else can you clean the inner man? There now!”
Pavel began to speak hotly and bitterly about God, about the Czar, about the government authorities, about the factory, and how in foreign countries the workingmen stand up for their rights. Rybin smiled occasionally; sometimes he struck a finger on the table as if punctuating14 a period. Now and then he cried out briefly15: “So!” And once, laughing out, he said quietly: “You’re young. You know people but little!”
Pavel stopping before him said seriously:
“Let’s not talk of being old or being young. Let us rather see whose thoughts are truer.”
“That is, according to you, we’ve been fooled about God also. So! I, too, think that our religion is false and injurious to us.”
Here the mother intervened. When her son spoke about God and about everything that she connected with her faith in him, which was dear and sacred to her, she sought to meet his eyes, she wanted to ask her son mutely not to chafe16 her heart with the sharp, bitter words of his unbelief. And she felt that Rybin, an older man, would also be displeased17 and offended. But when Rybin calmly put his question to Pavel, she could no longer contain herself, and said firmly: “When you speak of God, I wish you were more careful. You can do whatever you like. You have your compensation in your work.” Catching18 her breath she continued with still greater vehemence19: “But I, an old woman, I will have nothing to lean upon in my distress20 if you take my God away from me.”
Her eyes filled with tears. She was washing the dishes, and her fingers trembled.
“You did not understand us, mother!” Pavel said softly and kindly21.
“Beg your pardon, mother!” Rybin added in a slow, thick voice. He looked at Pavel and smiled. “I forgot that you’re too old to cut out your warts22.”
“I did not speak,” continued Pavel, “about that good and gracious God in whom you believe, but about the God with whom the priests threaten us as with a stick, about the God in whose name they want to force all of us to the evil will of the few.”
“That’s it, right you are!” exclaimed Rybin, striking his fingers upon the table. “They have mutilated even our God for us, they have turned everything in their hands against us. Mark you, mother, God created man in his own image and after his own likeness23. Therefore he is like man if man is like him. But we have become, not like God, but like wild beasts! In the churches they set up a scarecrow before us. We have got to change our God, mother; we must cleanse24 him! They have dressed him up in falsehood and calumny25; they have distorted his face in order to destroy our souls!”
He talked composedly and very distinctly and intelligibly26. Every word of his speech fell upon the mother’s ears like a blow. And his face set in the frame of his black beard, his broad face attired27, as it were, in mourning, frightened her. The dark gleam of his eyes was insupportable to her. He aroused in her a sense of anguish28, and filled her heart with terror.
“No, I’d better go away,” she said, shaking her head in negation29. “It’s not in my power to listen to this. I cannot!”
And she quickly walked into the kitchen followed by the words of Rybin:
“There you have it, Pavel! It begins not in the head, but in the heart. The heart is such a place that nothing else will grow in it.”
“Only reason,” said Pavel firmly, “only reason will free mankind.”
“Reason does not give strength!” retorted Rybin emphatically. “The heart gives strength, and not the head, I tell you.”
The mother undressed and lay down in bed without saying her prayer. She felt cold and miserable30. And Rybin, who at first seemed such a staid, wise man, now aroused in her a blind hostility31.
“Heretic! Sedition-maker!” she thought, listening to his even voice flowing resonantly32 from his deep chest. He, too, had come — he was indispensable.
He spoke confidently and composedly:
“The holy place must not be empty. The spot where God dwells is a place of pain; and if he drops out from the heart, there will be a wound in it, mark my word! It is necessary, Pavel, to invent a new faith; it is necessary to create a God for all. Not a judge, not a warrior33, but a God who shall be the friend of the people.”
“You had one! There was Christ!”
“Wait a moment! Christ was not strong in spirit. ‘Let the cup pass from me,’ he said. And he recognized Caesar. God cannot recognize human powers. He himself is the whole of power. He does not divide his soul saying: so much for the godly, so much for the human. If Christ came to affirm the divine he had no need for anything human. But he recognized trade, and he recognized marriage. And it was unjust of him to condemn34 the fig3 tree. Was it of its own will that it was barren of fruit? Neither is the soul barren of good of its own accord. Have I sown the evil in it myself? Of course not!”
The two voices hummed continuously in the room, as if clutching at each other and wrestling in exciting play. Pavel walked hurriedly up and down the room; the floor cracked under his feet. When he spoke all other sounds were drowned by his voice; but above the slow, calm flow of Rybin’s dull utterance35 were heard the strokes of the pendulum36 and the low creaking of the frost, as of sharp claws scratching the walls of the house.
“I will speak to you in my own way, in the words of a stoker. God is like fire. He does not strengthen anything. He cannot. He merely burns and fuses when he gives light. He burns down churches, he does not raise them. He lives in the heart.”
“And in the mind!” insisted Pavel.
“That’s it! In the heart and in the mind. There’s the rub. It’s this that makes all the trouble and misery37 and misfortune. We have severed38 ourselves from our own selves. The heart was severed from the mind, and the mind has disappeared. Man is not a unit. It is God that makes him a unit, that makes him a round, circular thing. God always makes things round. Such is the earth and all the stars and everything visible to the eye. The sharp, angular things are the work of men.”
The mother fell asleep and did not hear Rybin depart.
But he began to come often, and if any of Pavel’s comrades were present, Rybin sat in a corner and was silent, only occasionally interjecting: “That’s so!”
And once looking at everybody from his corner with his dark glance he said somberly:
“We must speak about that which is; that which will be is unknown to us. When the people have freed themselves, they will see for themselves what is best. Enough, quite enough of what they do not want at all has been knocked into their heads. Let there be an end of this! Let them contrive39 for themselves. Maybe they will want to reject everything, all life, and all knowledge; maybe they will see that everything is arranged against them. You just deliver all the books into their hands, and they will find an answer for themselves, depend upon it! Only let them remember that the tighter the collar round the horse’s neck, the worse the work.”
But when Pavel was alone with Rybin they at once began an endless but always calm disputation, to which the mother listened anxiously, following their words in silence, and endeavoring to understand. Sometimes it seemed to her as if the broad-shouldered, black-bearded peasant and her well-built, sturdy son had both gone blind. In that little room, in the darkness, they seemed to be knocking about from side to side in search of light and an outlet40, to be grasping out with powerful but blind hands; they seemed to fall upon the floor, and having fallen, to scrape and fumble41 with their feet. They hit against everything, groped about for everything, and flung it away, calm and composed, losing neither faith nor hope.
They got her accustomed to listen to a great many words, terrible in their directness and boldness; and these words had now ceased to weigh down on her so heavily as at first. She learned to push them away from her ears. And although Rybin still displeased her as before, he no longer inspired her with hostility.
Once a week she carried underwear and books to the Little Russian in prison. On one occasion they allowed her to see him and talk to him; and on returning home she related enthusiastically:
“He is as if he were at home there, too! He is good and kind to everybody; everybody jokes with him; just as if there were a holiday in his heart all the time. His lot is hard and heavy, but he does not want to show it.”
“That’s right! That’s the way one should act,” observed Rybin. “We are all enveloped42 in misery as in our skins. We breathe misery, we wear misery. But that’s nothing to brag43 about. Not all people are blind; some close their eyes of their own accord, indeed! And if you are stupid you have to suffer for it.”
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