The men stole softly round the corner of the house which remained untouched, to get to their boats, stealing away like culprits, though there was no want of goodwill17 in them. But they were not prepared for the scene that met them there. The little platform before the door, and the landing-place, were bright almost as day with the shining of the moon, the water one sheet of silver, upon which the boats lay black, the grassy18 space below all white and clear. In the midst of this space, seated on a stone, was Mrs. Methven. She had scarcely stirred all night. Her companion in sorrow had been taken into the shelter of the house, but she, unknown and half-forgotten, and strong with all the vigour19 of misery20, had remained there, avoiding speech of any one. With all her senses absorbed in listening, not a stroke had escaped her, scarcely a word—for a long time she had stood and walked about, not asking a question, observing, seeing, hearing all that was done. But as the awful hours went on, she had dropped down upon this rough seat, little elevated above the ground, where her figure now struck the troubled gaze of the young men, as if it had been that of a sentinel watching to see that they did not abandon their work. No such thought was in her mind. She was conscious of every movement they had made. For a moment she had thought that their call upon her son meant that they had found some trace of him—but that was a mere instantaneous thrill, which her understanding was too clear to continue to entertain. She had said to herself from the beginning that there was no hope; she had said from the first what the men had said to each other reluctantly after hours of exertion22. What was the good? since nothing could be done. Yet all the while as she said this, she was nursing within her bosom23, concealing24 it even from her own consciousness, covering up the smouldering dying fire in her heart, a hope that would not altogether die. She would not even go towards the workers when they called out her son’s name to know what it was; but only waited, waited with a desperate, secret, half-heathen thought, that perhaps if she did not cry and importune25, but was silent, letting God do what He would, He might yet relent and bring her back her boy. Oh be patient! put on at least the guise26 of patience! and perhaps He would be touched by the silence of her misery—He who had not heard her prayers.
She sat going over a hundred things in her heart. That Walter should have come back to her, called her to him, opened his heart to her, as a preparation for being thus snatched from her for ever! She said to herself that by-and-by she would thank God for this great mercy, and that she had thus found her son again if only for two days: but in the mean time her heart bled all the more for the thought, and bereavement27 became more impossible, more intolerable, even from that, which afterwards would make it almost sweet. As she kept that terrible vigil and heard the sound of the implements28 with which—oh, what was it?—not him, his body, the mangled29 remains30 of him, were being sought, she seemed to see him, standing21 before her, leaning upon her, the strong on the weak, pouring his troubles into her bosom—as he had not done since he was a child; and now he was lying crushed beneath those stones. Oh no, no, Oh no, no—it was not possible. God was not like that, holding the cup of blessing31 to a woman’s lips and then snatching it away. And then with an effort she would say to herself what she had said from the first, what she had never wavered in saying, that there was no hope. How could there be any hope? crushed beneath tons of falling stones—oh, crushed out of recognition, out of humanity! her imagination spared her nothing. When they found him they would tell her it was better, better, she the mother that bore him, that she should not see him again. And all the while the moon shining and God looking on. She was callous32 to the cry that came continually, mechanically, now stronger, now fainter, from the rooms above. “Oona, Oona!” Sometimes it made her impatient. Why should the woman cry, as if her voice could reach her child under those masses of ruin? And she could not cry who had lost her all! her only one! why should the other have that relief and she none—nor any hope? But all the sounds about her caught her ear with a feverish33 distinctness. When she heard the steps approaching after the pause of which she had divined the meaning, they seemed to go over her heart, treading it down into the dust. She raised her head and looked at them as they came up, most of the band stealing behind to escape her eye. “I heard you,” she said, “call—my son.”
“It was only to try; it was to make an effort; it was a last chance.”
“A last——” though she was so composed there was a catch in her breath as she repeated this word; but she added, with the quiet of despair, “You are going away?”
The young man who was the spokesman stood before her like a culprit with his cap in his hand.
“My brothers and I,” he said, “would gladly stay if it was any use; but there is no light to work by, and I fear—I fear—that by this time——”
“There is no more hope?” she said. “I have no hope. I never had any hope.”
The young man turned away with a despairing gesture, and then returned to her humbly34, as if she had been a queen.
“We are all grieved—more grieved than words can say: and gladly would we stay if we could be of any use. But what can we do? for we are all convinced—”
“No me,” cried Hamish, coming forward in the moonlight. “No me!” his bleeding hands left marks on his forehead as he wiped the heavy moisture from it; his eyes shone wildly beneath his shaggy brows. “I was against it,” he cried, “from the first! I said what would they be doing here? But convinced, that I never will be, no till I find—Mem, if ye tell them they’ll bide35. Tell them to bide. As sure as God is in heaven that was all her thought—we will find her yet.”
The other men had slunk away, and were softly getting into their boats. The three young yachtsmen alone waited, a group of dark figures about her. She looked up at them standing together in the moonlight, her face hollowed out as if by the work of years.
“He is my only one,” she said, “my only one. And you—you—you are all the sons of one mother.”
Her voice had a shrill36 anguish37 in it, insupportable to hear: and when she paused there came still more shrilly38 into the air, with a renewed passion, “Oona! Oona!” the cry that had not ceased for hours. The young man who was called Patrick flung his clenched39 hand into the air; he gave a cry of pity and pain unendurable.
“Go and lie down for an hour or two,” he said to the others, “and come back with the dawn. Don’t say a word. I’ll stay; it’s more than a man can bear.”
When the others were gone, this young fellow implored40 the poor lady to go in, to lie down a little, to try and take some rest. What good could she do? he faltered41; and she might want all her strength for to-morrow—using all those familiar pleas with which the miserable42 are mocked. Something like a smile came over her wan16 face.
“You are very kind,” she said, “oh very kind!” but no more. But when he returned and pressed the same arguments upon her she turned away almost with impatience43. “I will watch with my son to-night,” she said, putting him away with her hand. And thus the night passed.
Mrs. Forrester had been taken only half-conscious into Walter’s room early in the evening. Her cry had become almost mechanical, not to be stopped; but she, it was hoped, was but half aware of what was passing, the unwonted and incredible anguish having exhausted44 her simple being, unfamiliar45 with suffering. Mr. Cameron, the minister from the village, had come over on the first news, and Mysie from the isle46 to take care of her mistress. Together they kept watch over the poor mother, who lay sometimes with her eyes half closed in a sort of stupor47, sometimes springing up wildly, to go to Oona who was ill, and wanting her, she cried, distraught. “Oona! Oona!” she continued to cry through all. Mysie had removed her bonnet48, and her light faded hair was all dishevelled, without the decent covering of the habitual49 cap, her pretty colour gone. Sorrow seems to lie harder on such a gentle soul. It is cruel. There is nothing in it that is akin10 to the mild level of a being so easy and common. It was torture that prostrated50 the soul—not the passion of love and anguish which gave to the other mother the power of absolute self-control, and strength which could endure all things. Mr. Cameron himself, struck to the heart, for Oona was as dear to him as a child of his own, restrained his longing51 to be out among the workers in order to soothe52 and subdue53 her; and though she scarcely understood what he was saying, his presence did soothe her. It was natural that the minister should be there, holding her up in this fiery54 passage, though she could not tell why.
And thus the night went on. The moonlight faded outside; the candles paled and took a sickly hue55 within as the blue dawn came stealing over the world. At that chillest, most awful moment of all the circle of time, Mrs. Forrester had sunk into half-unconsciousness. She was not asleep, but exhaustion56 had almost done the part of sleep, and she lay on the sofa in a stupor, not moving, and for the first time intermitting her terrible cry. The minister stole down-stairs in that moment of repose57. He was himself an old man and shaken beyond measure by the incidents of the night. His heart was bleeding for the child of his spirit, the young creature to whom he had been tutor, counsellor, almost father from her childhood. He went out with his heart full, feeling the vigil insupportable in the miserable room above, yet almost less supportable when he came out to the company of the grey hills growing visible, a stern circle of spectators round about, and realised with a still deeper pang58 the terrible unmitigated fact of the catastrophe59. It was with horror that he saw the other mother sitting patient upon the stone outside. He did not know her, and had forgotten that such a person existed as Lord Erradeen’s mother. Had she been there all night? “God help us,” he said to himself; “how selfish we are, even to the sharers of our calamity.” She looked up at him as he passed, but said nothing. And what could he say to her? For the first time he behaved himself like a coward, and fled from duty and kindness; for what could he say to comfort her? and why insult her misery with vain attempts? Young Patrick had pressed shelter and rest upon her, being young and knowing no better. But the minister could not tell Walter’s mother to lie down and rest, to think of her own life. What was her life to her? He passed her by with the acute and aching sympathy which bears a share of the suffering it cannot relieve. And his own suffering was sore. Oona, Oona, he cried to himself silently in his heart as her mother had done aloud—his child, his nursling, the flower of his flock. Mysie had told him in the intervals60, when her mistress was quiet, in whispers and with tears, of all that had happened lately, and of Oona’s face that was like the Sabbath of the Sacrament, so grave yet so smiling as she left the isle. This went to the old minister’s heart. He passed the ruin where Hamish was still plucking uselessly, half-stupefied, at the stones, and Patrick, with his back against the unbroken wall, had fallen asleep in utter weariness. Mr. Cameron did not linger there, but sought a place out of sight of man, where he could weep: for he was old, and his heart was too full to do without some natural relief.
He went through the ruined doorway61 to a place where all was still green and intact, as it had been before the explosion; the walls standing, but trees grown in the deep soil which covered the old stone floor. He leaned his white head against the roughness of the wall, and shed the tears that made his old eyes heavy, and relieved his old heart with prayer. He had prayed much all the night through, but with distracted thoughts, and eyes bent62 upon the broken-hearted creature by whose side he watched. But now he was alone with the great and closest Friend, He to whom all things can be said, and who understands all. “Give us strength to resign her to Thee,” he said, pressing his old cheek against the damp and cold freshness of the stones, which were wet with other dews than those of nature, with the few concentrated tears of age, that mortal dew of suffering. The prayer and the tears relieved his soul. He lifted his head from the wall, and turned to go back again—if, perhaps, now fresh from his Master’s presence he might find a word to say to the other woman who all night long, like Rizpah, had sat silent and watched her son.
But as he turned to go away it seemed to the minister that he heard a faint sound. He supposed nothing but that one of the men who had been working had gone to sleep in a corner, and was waking and stirring to the daylight. He looked round, but saw no one. Perhaps, even, there came across the old man’s mind some recollection of the tales of mystery connected with this house; but in the presence of death and sorrow, he put these lesser63 wonders aside. Nevertheless, there was a sound, faint, but yet of something human. The old stone floor was deep under layers of soil upon which every kind of herbage and even trees grew; but in the corner of the wall against which he had been leaning, the gathered soil had been hollowed away by the droppings from above, and a few inches of the original floor was exposed. The old man’s heart began to beat with a bewildering possibility: but he dared not allow himself to think of it: he said to himself, but it must be a bird, a beast, something imprisoned64 in some crevice65. He listened. God! was that a moan? He turned and rushed, with the step of a boy, to where Patrick sat dozing66, and Hamish, stupefied, worked on mechanically. He clutched the one out of his sleep, the other from his trance of exhaustion—“Come here! come here! and listen. What is this?” the old minister said.
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