When Christian9 had climbed to the top of the hill his sack of sins fell from his back. When an Englishman lands in France, he drops his bundle of moral scruples10 in the harbor as he passes down the gang-plank. For morality is a matter of temperament11, and for the time being his temperament shall be French. Just as a soul newly departed, may look back with pitying resentment12 on the chill chaotic13 body that once confined it, so he looks back across the English Channel at the uncharming rectitude of his former self. Being an Englishman has bored him.
I shall never forget the first wild rapture14 with which I viewed the tall white cliffs of Dieppe. It was about three in the afternoon. The sky was intensely blue, dotted here and there with fleecy islands of cloud. The sun smote15 down so hotly on the deck that one’s feet felt swollen16. Far away the gleaming quaintness17 of the French fishing-town grew up and stole nearer. It seemed to me that as the wind swept towards us from the land, I caught the merry frou-frou of ten thousand skirts. Fields and woodlands which topped the cliffs, hid laughing eyes and emotional white arms eagerly extended. The staccato chatter18 of happiness lay before me. I had escaped from the Eveless Paradise of my own countrymen. I had slipped out by the back-door of the world. I was free to act as I liked. I was unobserved. Discretion19 had lost its most obvious purpose. It excited me to pretend to myself that I was almost willing to be tempted20.
That night I sat by the quays22 at Rouen, observing the groups of men and women, always together, passing up and down. I saw how they drew frankly23 near to one another. I listened to their scraps24 of quiet conversation. The lazy laughter, now the hoarse25 brass27 of men’s voices, now the silver clearness of a woman’s, rose and fell. Below me barges28 from Paris creaked against the piles, and the golden Seine swept beneath the bridges, singing like a gay grisette. As night sank down I was stung to loneliness, thinking of the absence of Vi and Fiesole.
I arrived in Paris on the evening of the following day. Hastily depositing my baggage at my hotel in the Rue29 St. Honoré, I set out to stroll the boulevards. Until three in the morning I wandered from café to café. I searched the faces of passers-by for signs of the gracious abandon to happiness of which I had so often heard. My mind teemed30 with vivid images of pleasure such as crowd the pages of novels concerning Paris. Flitting moth-like up and down garish31 tunnels of light I saw a painted death. It simpered at me from under shadows of austere32 churches. It flirted33 with me, ogling34 me with slanted35 eyes, as I passed beneath the glare of lamps. I crossed the Pont St. Michel going southward, and found it in the guise36 of girls masquerading in male attire37. I went across the bridges again and found it in the Rue de Rivoli, hunting with jaded38 feverish39 expression for men. Wherever I went I encountered the same fixed40 mercenary smile, saw the same lavish41 display of ankles beneath foamy42 skirts, and heard the same weary tip-tapping of feet which carried bodies which should be sold to whoever would purchase.
Where was the joy and adventure of which I had heard? The purpose of happiness should be life, not death. Several times that night women turned aside and seated themselves at a table beside me. They roused my pity; pity was quickly changed to disgust by their hot-foot avarice43. All around me was a painted death.
Overhead the breeze ruffled44 the tree-tops. I looked up through the leaves. Stars were going out. I caught between roofs of tired houses a glimpse of the Eternal looking down. Surely the God who kept the wind going and replenished45 the sky with clouds, meant man to be happy in some better fashion. I went back to my hotel and, gathering46 together my baggage, fled.
At Florence the problem of right and wrong presented itself to me in another aspect. Restraint seemed attended with sadness; license47 with ugliness and regret. From above dim shrines48 disfigured Christs bespoke50 the anguish52 of crucified passions. On the other hand, Filippino’s tattered53 Magdalene symbolized54 the hideous55 rewards of abandonment. Both restraint and unrestraint brought sorrow, and I wanted to be supremely56 glad. Life should be an affair of singing. I was fascinated by the thought of woman. With one woman I was in love; in another I was interested. Both of them I must forget. I would not love Fiesole because I could not marry Vi. Yet within me was this capacity for passion, smoldering57, leaping, expanding, fighting for an outlet58. Surely in a rightly governed world it should find some fine expression! Through the by-ways of every city that I entered the lean hound of vice59 hunted after nightfall, and behind him stalked the painted death. The cleanness of the country called me. Like a captive stag, I longed to feel the cool touch of leaves against my shoulders.
In the Accademia at Florence I discovered my own dilemma60 portrayed61. It stated my problem, but it offered no solution. However, it gave me a sense of comradeship to find that Botticelli, so many years ago, had peered down over the same precipice62. In The Kingdom of Venus one sees a flowered wood; from leafy trees hangs golden fruit; between their trunks drifts in the flaming light that never was on sea or land. Here a band of maidens63 have met with a solitary64 youth to celebrate the renewal65 of spring. In the center of the landscape, a little back from the group, stands a sad-faced Venus, who might equally well be a madonna listening for the dreadful beat of Gabriel’s wings who shall summon her to be mother of a saviour66 to the world. To her left stand three wanton spirits of earth and air, innocently carnal, eternal in their loveliness. To her right three maidens dance with lifted hands. One of them gazes with melancholy67 desire towards the youth. He looks away from her unwillingly69. In their eyes broods the gloomy foreknowledge of wrong-doing. They would fain be Grecians, but they have bowed to the Vatican. The shadows, the flowers, the rustling70 leaves are still pagan; but in the young girl’s eyes hangs the memory of the tortured Christ. She is wanton in her scarcely veiled nakedness, but she dares not forget; and while she remembers, she cannot be happy. The lips with which she will woo her lover have worshiped the wound-prints of the pierced hand.
The Renaissance72 made even its sadness exquisite73 by using it as the vehicle for poetry; but we, having lost our sense of magic, explain our melancholy in mediaeval terms. Magic was still in the world; I was determined74 to find it.
I was continually drawn75 back to the picture. I would sit before it for hours. It explained nothing. If offered no suggestions. It simply told me what I already knew about myself. But in watching it I found rest. Rebellion against social facts which turn love into lust76 left me. I came to see that a love which is unlawful is only lovely in its unfulfilment. The young girl in the woodland, did she rouse the frenzy77 in her lover, would lose the purity which was irrecoverable; by evening she would weep among the broken flowers. Perhaps, did I win her, it might be so with Vi.
I tried to find satisfaction by losing myself in memories of the past. The past is always kindlier than the present because, as Carlyle once said, the fear has gone out of it. The heavy actuality of the sorrows of Romeos makes them pleasurable romance only to latter-day observers. In their own day they were scandals. So I wandered through sun-scorched Italian towns, red and white and saffron, and I hung above ancient bridges, looking down on rushing mountain torrents78, and I dreamt myself back to the glory of the loves that had once been self-consuming beneath that forgetful hard blue sky.
When I came to Ferrara my mind was stormy with thoughts of Lucrezia Borgia—Lucrezia of the amber79 hair. It was here that she came in her pageantry of shame to seek her third husband in the unwilling68 Alphonso. Ferrara had not changed since that day. She had seen it as I saw it. I entered the town at sunset. The golden light smote against the red-brick walls of the Castello. I imagined that I saw her sweet wronged face, half-saint, half-siren, gazing out from the narrow barred windows across the green-scummed moat.
I hired rooms in the primitive80 Pellegrino e Gaiana. They looked out on the dusty tree-shadowed Piazza81 Torquato Tasso, where tables with white cloths were spread, on which stood tall bottles of rough country wine. I promised myself that from there, as I sat, I could just discern the Castello. I had my dinner beneath the trees. On the further side of the square was a wine tavern82. Men and girls were singing there. Sometimes the door would push open, letting out a rush of light. I tried to think that they were the men-at-arms of long ago. A cool breeze stirred the dust at my feet. The moon was rising. I got up and sauntered through gaunt paved streets, past empty palaces, past Ariosto’s house and out toward the country, where vines hung heavy with grapes, festooning the olivetrees. Italy lay languorous84 and scented85 in the night, like a fair deep-bosomed courtesan. The sensuous86 delight of the present mingled87 with my thoughts of the past. I had been hardly surprised had Lucrezia stolen out from the dusk towards me, with the breeze whipping about her the golden snakes of her hair.
Slowly I turned back to the town. At the Castello I halted, peering across the moat at the sullen88 darkness of the walls on the other side. As I stood smoking my cigar, I saw an English girl coming towards me across the Piazza Savonarola. Her nationality was unmistakable; she walked with a healthy air of self-reliance which you do not find in Latin women. I was surprised to see her. July is not the month for tourists. So far, save for a few Americans, I had had Italy to myself. And I was surprised for another reason—she was unaccompanied.
As she drew nearer, I turned my back so that she should not be offended by my staring. I heard her step coming closer. It halted at my side. I looked round, supposing she had lost her direction and was about to question me.
“You—you here!” I exclaimed and remained staring.
“I didn’t think you’d expect me,” she laughed shyly.
“Of course I didn’t. How should I? What brought you?”
“I was on my way to Venice; but remembering you were here, I stayed over for the night. You don’t mind?”
“Mind! I should say not. Where are you staying?”
“At the Albergo Europa. I was just on my way over to the Pellegrino e Gaiana to inquire if you were there. I’ve asked at all the other hotels.”
While we had been speaking I had been watching her closely. What was it that was changed in her? Was it the voluptuousness89 of the Italian night that made her more splendidly feminine? She had lost her laughing tone of laziness. Her beauty was strong wine and fire. Something had become earnest in her. Then I asked myself why had she come—was she really on her way to Venice?
“I’m jolly glad you came,” I said impetuously; “I’ve been missing you ever since I left.”
“And I you.”
She took my arm, giving it a friendly hug, just as Ruthita did when she was glad. We walked over to the Piazza Torquato Tasso. Seating ourselves at a table beneath the trees, we called for wine. The light from the trattoria fell softly on her face. The air was dreamy with fragrance90 of limes. At tables nearby other men and women were sitting. Across the way in the tavern my men-at-arms were still singing and carousing91.
“What are you thinking?” she asked, leaning across towards me.
“I was thinking that I now begin to understand you.”
“In what way?” She jerked the question out. It was as though she had flung up her arms to ward2 off a blow. Her voice panted.
“You’ve always puzzled me,” I said. “You are a mixture of ice and fire. The ice is English and the fire is Italian. You’re different to-night.”
“How?”
“You’re mediaeval. The fire has melted the ice.”
She took my hand gratefully and drew me nearer. “Do you like me better?”
“Much better. I keep thinking how like you are to Simonetta in The Kingdom of Venus. I spent hours sitting before it at the Accademia in Florence. I couldn’t tell what was the attraction. Now I know. It was you I was looking at; you as you are now—not as you were.”
“Dante,” she said, “you can see what is beautiful in a painting or a poem, but you can’t see beauty in things themselves. You’re afraid to—you’re afraid of being disillusioned92. You see life as reflected in a mirror.”
“It’s safer,” I smiled.
She took me up sharply. There was pain in what she said. “Ah, yes, safer! You’re always counting the cost and looking ahead for sorrow. You’re a pagan, but fear makes you an ascetic93. You have the feeling that joy is something stolen, and you grow timid lest you’re going to be bad.”
“That’s true.”
“Can’t you believe,” she whispered, “that anything that makes two people happy must be right and best?”
“I wish I could.”
“And that anything that makes them sad must be wicked?”
“Fiesole,” I said, “have you been sad?”
She would not answer, but drew herself back into the shadow so I could not see her expression. We sat silent, fingering our glasses, giving ourselves over to the languor83 of the summer’s night. Through the rapturous stillness we heard the breeze from the mountains rustling across the Emilian plain like a woman in silk attire. At a neighboring table a man and a girl, thinking themselves unobserved, swayed slowly towards one another and kissed, as though constrained94 by some power stronger than themselves. Through the golden windows of the tavern across the way, one could see the silhouettes95 of men and women trail stealthily across the white-washed walls. The spirit of Lucrezia and her lover-poets seemed to haunt Ferrara that night.
“You’re going to Venice,” I said abruptly96. “So am I. Perhaps we shall meet there.”
“Perhaps.”
“We might travel there together.”
“I should be glad.”
We rose from the table. It was late. The piazza was growing empty. The apple-green shutters97 before the windows of the houses were closed. Behind some of them were lights which threw gold bars on the pavement. The streets were silent.
“How did you know that I would be here?” I asked.
“You forget—you left me your addresses.”
“So I did. But you didn’t write. Why didn’t you write?”
“I was afraid you wouldn’t understand.”
What she meant by that I could only guess. Perhaps she hardly knew herself. My blood was rushing wildly through my veins98. I was breathing the atmosphere of passion. I did not look ahead; I was absorbed in the present. I had been hungry for Vi—well, now I had Fiesole. I had been thirsty for the love of a woman. Fiesole was giving me her comradeship. I was intoxicated100 with life’s beauty.
The saffron moon looked down, pillowed on a bank of silver cloud. As we passed the Castello, a fish leapt in the moat, and fell back with a splash. I halted, leaning against the parapet.
“And it was here we met.”
She pressed against me. I could feel the wild beating of her heart; it tapped against my side, calling to my heart for entrance. Her voice shook with emotion; it whispered above the surge of conflicting thoughts like the solemn tolling101 of a sunken bell. “Since then everything has become golden, somehow.”
I dared not trust myself to respond to her tenderness. I was shaken and awed102 by her intensity103. With her lips just a little way from mine, so that my cheeks were fanned by her breath, her face looked into mine, the chin tilted104 and the long white throat stretched back. I gazed on her motionless, with my arms strained down against my side.
“Fiesole,” I whispered, “how many girls and boys have stood here and said that!”
Her eagerness died out. She slipped her arm into mine. “But we are alive. I was thinking of nobody but our two selves to-night.”
We plunged105 into the cool deep shadows of the colonnade106. We turned into the Corso della Giovecca. Down the long dim street all the houses stood in darkness, save for a faint patch of light which carpeted the pavement in front of her hotel.
“Your maid will be wondering what has happened.”
She looked at me curiously107. “She won’t. I didn’t bring her.”
“Good-night until to-morrow.”
“Good-night.”
She looked back once from the doorway108 and smiled She entered. The sleepy porter came out and swung to the gates.
I was amazed at her bewitching indiscretion. For myself it did not matter. But what of her, if we should be seen together? A man can afford such accidents; but a woman—— I tried to deceive myself. Our meeting was, as she had said, haphazard109. We were both alone in Italy. Our routes lay in the same direction. What more natural than that we should travel together? But I knew that this was not the case. I determined to open her eyes to the risks she was taking.
Next morning when I woke, I wondered vaguely110 what was the cause of this strange elation111. Then memory came back. I jumped out of bed and flung the shutters wide. Out in the piazza some earlier risers were already seated at the tables. A man was watering the pavement, singing gaily112 to himself. Beneath the trees a parrot and a cockatoo screeched113, hurling114 insults at one another from their perches115. A soldier showed his teeth and laughed, talking to a broad-hipped peasant girl. At the top of the piazza a slim white figure waited.
I made haste with my dressing116. I was extremely happy. I tried to analyze117 the situation, but lost patience with myself.
Picking up my hat and running down the stairs, I came across her standing118 outside the Cathedral, in the full glare of the sun. Before I had spoken she turned, darting119 like a pigeon, instinctively120 aware of my approach. “I’ve beaten you by nearly two hours,” she called gaily.
We passed into the fruit-market. I bought a basket of ripe figs121; sitting down on a bench we ate them together. All round us was stir and bustle122. Farmers in their broad straw-hats were unyoking oxen while women spread the wares123.
“Fiesole, there’s just one thing I want to say to you, after which I’ll never mention it.”
“I know what it is. I’ve thought it all out.”
“Are you sure you have? Of course no one may ever know. But if by some chance they should find out, are you sure that you think it’s worth while?”
“Reckoning the cost again!” she laughed, helping124 herself to another fig49.
“I’ll pay gladly. It’s you I’m considering,” I said seriously.
She rested her hand on mine. It was cool, and long, and delicate. I was startled at the thrill it gave me. “Dante,” she whispered, “have you ever wanted anything so badly that your whole body ached to get it? When you were very thirsty, say, and you heard a stream, singing ‘Find me. Find me’ out of sight in the hills among the heather? Then you climbed up and up, and the sun beat down, and your throat was dry, and the stream sang louder, and at last you found it. I’m like that. I don’t mind what the bank is like. I lie down full-length and let the water sing against my mouth. I’ve been thirsty for something, Dante, all my life. Yes, I’ve counted the price. If you don’t mind having me, Dannie, I’ll stay with you for the present.”
She rubbed her cheek against my shoulder ever so slightly. I bent125 towards her. When you’ve wounded a woman, there’s only one way of making recompense. She saw my intent. She drew back laughing, dragging my hand with her. The quick red blood mounted to her forehead. The gold in her green eyes sparkled with gladness. “Not now,” she cried. Then recovering herself, “But you’re a dear to want me like that.”
That morning we visited the Corpus Domini where Lu-crezia Borgia lies buried. We were admitted to a little chapel126 where all was lonely and silent. Presently a door opened and two nuns127 dressed in black entered. Their faces were covered from sight by long black veils. All that was human we were permitted to see of them was their eyes, which looked out from two black holes like stars in a dreary128 night. They had been beautiful perhaps, but because Christ was crucified they had crucified themselves. And these women, who had never tasted life, whose flesh had never throbbed129 with the sweet torture which was their right, whose bodies were the unremembered sepulchres of little children whose lips had never pressed the breast—these women were the guardians130 of her who had been the Magdalene of the Renaissance, whose feet had climbed the Calvary of passion, but not the Calvary of sacrifice. Sunlight, amber-colored as Lucrezia’s hair, slipped across the slab131 which marked her grave. Down there in the unbroken dusk, did her tresses mock decay?
From a hidden cloister132 the chanting of children’s voices broke the quiet. Its very suddenness took me by the throat. It was the future calling out of the sad and molder-ing content of stupidly misspent lives. Fiesole edged her hand into mine. I smiled into her eyes; then I looked at the nuns again. Who would remember them when three centuries had gone by? Lucrezia, if she had been wanton, had at least given joy; so the world forgave her now that she was buried. We tiptoed out into the tawny133 street, where water tinkled134 down the gutters135. We had found a new sanction for desire.
It was towards evening that we sighted Venice, floating between sea and sky in a tepid136 light. Where we parted from the mainland, thin trees ran down to the water’s edge, shivering and gleaming, like naked boys. As the train thundered across the trestled bridge which spans the lagoon137, Fiesole and I crowded against the window, tingling138 with excitement. The salt wind smote upon our faces and loosened a strand139 of her red-brown hair. Laughing, I fastened it into place. She snatched up my hand and kissed the fingers separately. We were children, so thrilled with happiness that we could speak only by signs and exclamations140. A gondola141 drifted by, rowed by a poppe in a scarlet142 sash. Though we both saw it, we cried to one another that it was a gondola, and waved. Then the gold sun fell splashing through the clouds; Venice was stained to orange, and the lagoon to the purple of wine.
Not until the train had halted in the station did it occur to me that we had made no plans.
Hotel porters were already fighting to get possession of our baggage.
“Where are you going to stay?” I asked.
“Wherever you like,” she said. “A good place is the Hotel D’Angleterre on the Riva degli Schiavoni.”
So she took it for granted that we should put up at the same hotel! We went aboard the steamer and traveled down the Grand Canal in prosaic143 fashion, with the nodding black swans of gondolas144 all about us.
The Hotel D’Angleterre stands facing the Canale di San Marco, looking across to San Maria della Salute145. The angle is that from which so many of Canaletto’s Venetian masterpieces were painted.
The proprietor146 came out to greet us suave147 and smiling. “A room for Monsieur and Madame?”
“Two rooms,” I said shortly.
When we went upstairs to look at them, we found that they were next door to one another. Fiesole made no objection.
They were both front rooms and faced the Canal. One could hardly find fault with them on the ground that they were too near together.
By the time dinner was over the silver dusk was falling. A hundred yards out two barche, a little distance separated, drifted with swinging lanterns. The tinkling148 of guitars sounded and the impassioned singing of a girl. Above embattled roofs of palaces to the westward149 fiery150 panthers of the sunset crouched151. The beauty of it all was stinging—it seemed the misty152 fabric153 of a dream which must instantly shatter and fade into a pale and torturing remembrance.
We stepped into a gondola.
She spoke51 a few hasty words in Italian, then we stole out from the quay21 across the velvet154 blackness.
“Where are we going?” I asked her.
“Round the old canals of the Rialto.”
Soon every sound, even the faint sounds of Venice, grew fainter and vanished. Only the dip of the oar26 was heard, the water lapping, and the weird155 plaintive156 cry of the poppe as we approached a corner, “A-?el,” and “Sia stali” or “Sia premi” as we turned. We crept along old waterways where the oozy157 walls ground against the gondola on either side. Far, far up the narrow ribbon of ink-blue sky and the twinkling of stars looked down. Fiesole cuddled against me, like a contented158 tired child. I kept thinking of what she had said, “Have you ever wanted anything so badly that your whole body ached to get it?” I wondered if she had got that something now.
When we returned to the hotel it was past midnight. The sharp tang of morning was in the air. Lights which had blazed across the lagoon, now smoldered159 like torches burnt to the socket160. Venice floated, a fair Ophelia with eyes drowned and hair disordered; one saw her mistily161 as through water.
Our gondola creaked against the landing, banged by the little waves. A poppe in a nearby barca groaned162 in his sleep and stirred. We were cramped163 with our long sitting. I gave Fiesole my arm; she shrank against me. At the door of her room I paused.
“We’ve had one brilliant day to remember. You’re happy now?”
“Very happy, dear Dante.”
I entered my room and sat down in the dark on the side of the bed.
I did not love her. I blundered my way over all the old arguments. I told myself that, since I could not marry Vi, I could not do better than marry Fiesole. But at the thought my soul rebelled—it was treachery. I tried to expel Vi’s image from my mind, but it refused to be expelled. I lived over again all the intoxicating164 pleasure of the day, but it was Vi who was my companion. I only drugged myself with Fiesole. She appealed to my imagination; her loveliness went like a strong wine to my head.
In the next room all sounds of stirring had ceased. I looked up; greyhound clouds, long and lean, coursed in pursuit of stars across the moon. I tiptoed to the window. As I leant out, I heard a faint sighing. I caught the glint of copper-gold hair poured across the sill of the neighboring window. Fearing she might see me, I drew back. Why was it, I asked myself, that Fiesole was not my woman? What was the reason for this fantastic loyalty166 to Vi, who could never be mine? Was it instinct that held me back from Fiesole or mere167 cold-heartedness?
For the next three days we wandered Venice, doing the usual round of churches and palaces. I was feverishly168 careful to live my life with Fiesole in public. I feared for her sake to be left alone with her. There was protection in spectators. She understood and accepted the situation, though we had not discussed it together. She played the part of a daring boy, carrying herself with merry independence. At times I almost forgot she was a girl. She disarmed169 my watchfulness170, and seemed bent on showing me that it was unnecessary.
On the morning of the fourth day, we returned to déjeuner parched171 and footsore from exploring the stifling172 alleys173 which lie back of the Rialto. The air was heavy and sultry. The water seemed to boil in the canals. Every stone flung back the steady glare. Blue lagoons174, polished as reflectors, mirrored the blue of the cloudless sky.
From where we sat at table, we could see crowded steamers draw in at the pier71 and crawl like flies across the bay to Lido.
Fiesole made a queer little face at me. “Stupid old sober-sides!”
“What’s the matter?”
She flung herself back in her chair, regarding me with a languid, arch expression. “I’m tired of fudging in and out of old palaces and churches. I came here to enjoy myself. If I promise to be a good girl, will you take me to Lido to bathe? We’ll have one dear little afternoon all to ourselves.”
A warm breeze caught us on the steamer. What ripe lips Fiesole had, and what inscrutable eyes! Since that first night of our arrival, she had prevented me from treating her with any of the privileges of her sex. She had walked when and where she liked. She had insisted on paying her share of everything down to the last centesimi. Now she changed her mood and slipped her arm through mine. We had both grown tired of pretending she was a man. “You needn’t be afraid to be nice to me,” she said.
There were lovers all about us: girls from the glass-factories in white dresses, bareheaded, with tasseled175 black shawls; sailors from the Arsenal176 with keen bronzed faces and silky mustaches. Venice was taking a day off and giving us a lesson in happiness. The self-consciousness of the Anglo-Saxon, which makes the expression of pleasure bad taste and distressing177, was absent. Each was occupied with him or herself, sublimely178 unconscious of spectators.
“Haven’t I been nice?”
She patted my hand, entirely179 the woman now. “You’ve been trying to be correct. Why can’t you be your own dear self?”
Taking the tram across the island, we came to the Stabilimento dei Bagni. We walked through the arcade180 and down on to the terrace. The sea rolled in flashing, green and silver, in a long slow swell181. Leaning over the side, we watched the bathers. Men, with costumes unfastened at the shoulders, sifted182 golden sand through their fingers on to their naked chests. Women lay beside them, buried in the sand, laughing and chatting.
I noticed a blond young giant standing at the water’s edge. His face kindled183. I followed the direction in which he was looking. A dark-eyed girl had come out of her cabin. She wore a single-piece, tight-fitting suit of stockingette, which displayed her figure in all its splendid curves. Her face was roguish and vivid as that of Carmen. On her head she wore a scarlet turban. Her costume was sky blue.
The men who had been lying on their backs, turned over and regarded her with lazy admiration184 of her physical loveliness. Seemingly unaware185 of the interest she aroused, she came tripping daintily to the water’s edge, her white limbs flashing. The man held out his hand. With little birdlike exclamations she ran to him; then drew back and shivered as the first wave rippled186 about her feet. He encouraged her with tender, quickly spoken words. Her timidity was all a pretty pretense187 and they both knew it; but it gave them a chance to be charming to one another. He seized her hand again; she hung back from him laughing. Then they waded188 out together, hand-in-hand, splashing up diamonds as they went. They seemed to see no one but each other; they eyed one another innocently, unabashed. When they came to the deeper water, she clasped her arms about his neck; he swam out toward the horizon with her riding on his back. He was like a young sea-god capturing a land-maiden.
A stab of envy shot through me. I felt indignant with my inherited puritanism. It would not permit me simply to enjoy myself. I must be forever analyzing189 motives190, and lifting the lid off the future to search for consequences.
I looked at Fiesole. Her eyes were starry191. They seemed to mock me and plead with me saying, “Oh, Dannie, why can’t we be like that?”
I glanced down at the beach. The bathers were rising up and shaking off the sand. I noticed that only the women who had no beauty hid themselves behind bathing-skirts. The Italian standard of modesty192!—you only need be modest when you have something to be ashamed of. I accepted the standard.
Fiesole broke the silence, clapping her hands, crying “Wasn’t she perfect!” Then she took hold of my face in childish excitement and turned my head. “Oh, look there!”
An English girl had come out. Her bathing-suit was drab-colored and baggy193. Sagging194 about her knees hung an ugly skirt. In her clothes she might have been pretty; but now she was awkward and embarrassed. Her manner called attention to the fact that she was more sparsely195 clad than usual. She wore tight round her forehead a wretched waterproof196 cap.
“There’s Miss England,” laughed Fiesole.
“When we bathe, you be Miss Italy,” I laughed back.
And she was.
When I look back to that sunny July afternoon with the blue and silver Adriatic singing against the lips of the land, the warm wind blowing toward the shore from Egypt’s way, the daring flashing of slim white bodies tossed high by glistening197 waves, and the undercurrent merriment of laughter and secret love-making, I know that I had ventured as far as is safe into the garden which knows no barriers. It is as I saw her then that I like to remember Fiesole. I can see her coming down the golden sands, with a tress of her gold-red hair, that had escaped, lying shining between her breasts. I recall her astonishing girlishness, which she had hidden from me so long. Like a wild thing of the woods, she came to me at last, timid in her daring, halting to glance back at the green covert198, advancing again with glad shy gestures. Whatever had gone before was gallant3 make-belief. Without a word spoken, as her eyes met mine she told me all at the water’s edge.
That afternoon I learnt the absurd delirium199 that may overtake a man who is owned in public by a pretty woman. She was the prettiest woman in Italy that day from her small pink feet to her golden crown. And she knew it. She treated me as though I was hers and, forgetting everything, I was glad of it. I can still thrill with the boyish pride I felt when I fastened her dress, with all the beach watching. Whatever she asked me to do was a delightful200 form of flattery. It pleased me to know that others were suffering the same pangs201 of envy that I had felt. They were saying to themselves, “How charming she is! What a lucky fellow! That’s what youth can do for you. I wonder whether they’re married.”
Tucking her arm under mine with a delicious sense of proprietorship202, we set out with the crowd through the tropic growth of flowers to the pier from where the steamer started. A little way ahead I saw the blond giant with his gay little sweetheart. He was all care of her. She fluttered about him like a blue butterfly about a tall sunflower. She looked up into his face, making impertinent grimaces203. He nodded his head and laughed down.
Was it only the spirit of imitation that caused us to copy them? They gave us a glimpse into the tender lovers’ world, which we both were sick with longing204 to enter. If Fiesole was playing a part she played it well. Her cheeks flushed and her eyes were brilliant. She made me feel the same bewilderment of gladness I had felt all those years ago, as a boy at the Red House. How much it would have meant to me then if she had treated me as she did now!
We crossed the bay towards the hour of sunset. Venice swooned in a golden haze205. Clouds struck sparks from the burning disk, like hammers falling on a glowing anvil206. The lagoon stared at the sky without a quiver. We traveled a pathway of molten fire.
“We must live this day out,” I said as we landed. “Let’s go to the Bauer-Grunwald to-night.”
We hurried upstairs and changed into evening-dress. I tapped at her door, asking, “Are you ready?”
“All except some hooks and eyes. Come in,” she replied.
She was seated before the looking-glass, with her arms curved upward, tucking a bow of black ribbon in her hair. It was her reflection that looked into my face and smiled.
“You do me proud, Fiesole,” I said, remembering one of Vi’s phrases.
She looked as simple as a sixteen year old girl. Her dress was of pale green satin, cut high in the waist in Empire fashion, hanging without fullness to just above her ankles. The sleeves left off at the elbows. Her wonderful russet hair was gathered into a loose knot and lay coiled along her neck. She was the Fiesole of my school-days. Had she intended to remind me?
I sat down on the edge of the bed while she finished her dressing, following with my eyes the feminine nick-nacks which were strewn about. But always my eyes came back to her, with the mellow207 glory from the window transfiguring her face and neck. There was a nipping sweetness in being so near to a woman whom I could not hope to possess. I knew that without marrying her I could not keep her. Platonic208 friendships are only safe between men and women whose youth is withered209. I was wise enough to know that. We were chance-met travelers in Lovers’ Land—truants who would soon be dragged back. I kept saying to myself, “Intimacy such as we have can go but a short way further; any hour all this may end.”
Then I tried to imagine how this evening would seem to me years hence. The poignancy210 of life’s changefulness made me wistful. One day we should both be old. We should be free from tempestuous211 desires. The generous fires of youth would have burnt out. We should know the worth then of the pleasures we now withheld212 from one another. We should meet, having grown commonsense213 or satiated, and would wonder wherein lay the mastering attraction we had felt—from what source we had stolen our romance. We should be weary then, walking where our feet now ran. Why could we not last out this moment forever?
She rose, shaking down her skirt and courting my admiration.
“You may get to work on the hooks and eyes, old boy.”
Her voice was jerky with excitement. My fingers were awkward with trembling. As I leant over her, she patted my cheek, flashing a caress214 with her eyes. “Do you know, you’re handsome, Dante?”
I wanted to crush her in my arms, but my habitual215 restraint prevented. I should destroy the virginal quality in her—something which could never be put back. My mind conjured216 the scene. I saw her folded against me, her eyes brimming up to mine in tender amazement217. But my arms went on with their business, as though some strong power held them down.
“It’s done. Come, bambino, it’s getting late.”
She followed me down the stairs. My senses were reeling with the maddening fragrance of her presence. We walked through the Piazzetta and Piazza di San Marco, through the narrow streets and across the bridges till we arrived at the garden beside the canal. Arbors were illumined with faery-lamps. It seemed a scene staged for a theatre rather than a living actuality. Gondolas stole past the garden through the dusk. Mysterious people alighted. Guitars tinkled. In tall mediaeval houses rising opposite, lamps flashed and women looked down. As specters in a dream, people leant above the bridge, gazed into the water, and vanished. Venice walked with slippered218 feet and finger to lips that night.
The silence shivered; a clear peal165 of laughter rippled on the air. We turned. The girl with the young sea-god was entering the garden. They seated themselves at a table near us—so near that we could watch their expressions and overhear much that was said. It seemed they were fated to goad6 us on and make us ambitious of attaining219 their happiness.
Fiesole stretched out her hands. I smiled and took them, holding them palms up. “They’re like petals220 of pink roses,” I said.
Her face was laughing. “Do you think I’m pretty?”
“I’ve always thought that, and you know it—ever since you wouldn’t kiss me in Sneard’s garden.”
“It was you who wouldn’t ask to be kissed,” she pouted221. “What you could have, you didn’t value. It’s the same now.”
Her hands quivered; her lips became piteous. All the wild commotion222 of her heart seemed to travel through them to myself. My throat became suddenly parched.
“You know how it is, Fiesole. It isn’t that I haven’t affection for you; but to do that kind of thing, if I don’t intend to make you more to me, wouldn’t be fair.”
“But if I want it? What if I were to tell you, Dante, that you’re the only man I’ve ever cared for? What if I were to tell you that you’ve always been first in my heart, ever since we first met?”
I looked away from her to the street of water. I had nothing with which to answer. She tried to drag her hands from me, but still I held them.
“Dante,” she whispered, “look at me.” Her voice grew fainter. “I’m not speaking of marriage. Two people can be kind to one another without that.”
“And have I been unkind?”
She turned from my question. “You can never marry her,” she said. “You know that.”
A long silence elapsed, which was broken by voices of the girl and her lover at the neighboring table. Fiesole spoke again. “They’re not married. They never will be married. And yet they can share with one another one little corner of their lives.”
“For me it’s all or nothing,” I said. “If it wasn’t all, I should be forever thinking of the end. That’s how I’m made—it’s my training. If I did anything to you, Fiesole, that wounded you ever so little, I should hate myself. Wherever you were, I should be thinking of you—wanting to leave everything to come to you. I can’t forget. My conscience would give me no rest.”
She drew her hands free. “And yet you’re wounding me now.”
She was always different from other women, doing the unexpected. Instead of sitting melancholy through dinner, she broke into a burst of high spirits. She told me about her father, who had marched with Garibaldi. She rallied me on the awkward little boy I had been when first we met—all arms, and legs, and shyness. She talked of love in a bantering223 fashion, as insanity224 of the will. One minute she was the cynical225 woman of the world—the next the innocent young school-girl. She puzzled and played with me. Then she fell back into the vein99 of tenderness, recalling the good times we had had, stampeding through the Cotswolds in springtime with the mad wind blowing.
It was nearing midnight when we rose. Going down the little garden, we halted on the steps by the canal. A dozen shadowy figures leapt up with hoarse cries. We beckoned226 to a poppe; the gondola stole up and we entered.
“Don’t go back yet,” Fiesole pleaded.
We crept through ancient waterways, all solitary and silent; past churches blanched227 in the moonlight, and empty piazzas228; under bridges from which some solitary figure leant to observe us. Now a swiftly moving barca would overtake us; as it fled by we had a glimpse through the curtains of a man and a woman sitting close together. Now the door of a tavern would suddenly open, flinging across the water a bar of garish light; cloaked figures would emerge and the door would close as suddenly as it had opened. Overhead in balconies we sometimes detected the stir of life where we had thought there was emptiness, and would catch the rustle229 of a woman’s dress or see the red flare230 of a cigarette. We had the haunted sensation one has in a wood in May-time: though he discerns but little with the eye, he is conscious that behind green leaves an anonymous231, teeming232 world is mating and providing for its momentous233 cares.
Fiesole pressed against me; the darkness seemed to fling out hands, thrusting us together. She slipped off her hood234 and pushed back her cloak, displaying her arms and throat and hair. The seduction of her beauty enthralled235 and held me spellbound. The air pulsated236 with illicit237 influences. The dreaming city, vague and labyrinthine238, was the outward symbol of my state of mind. I had lost my standards; my will-power was too inert239 to rouse itself for their recovery. I was entranced by a sensuous inner vision of loveliness which exhausted240 my faculties241 of resistance. I apprehended242 some fresh allurement243 of femininity through each portal of sense. Fiesole’s touch made my flesh burn; her eyes stung me to pity; her voice caressed244 me. Her body relaxed till it rested the length of mine. Her head lay against my shoulder; her arms were warm about my neck. I tried to think—to think of honor and duty; but I could only think of her.
“You know what you said about Simonetta,” she whispered; “how you thought I was like her and you spent hours before The Kingdom of Venus. You were wrong, all wrong, Dante, in your thoughts about her. The young man in the picture was Giuliano dei Medici and Simonetta was dear to him for many years. So the flowers weren’t broken, Dannie. Instead of broken flowers, they made poetry for Botticelli to paint.”
How could I tell her that there was a difference between love and passion?—that my feeling for her could be only passion, because my love was with Vi? She loved me—that made all her actions pure. Morality would sound like the rasping voice of a tired schoolmaster, scolding a classroom of healthy boys. It was even unsafe for me to pity her; when I drew my coat about her, she kissed my hand. I clasped her closely, gazing straight ahead, not daring to look down. Every quiver of her languorous body communicated itself.
“Fiesole, if I don’t marry her, I will marry you some day. I promise.”
“But I want you now—now—now.” Her whisper was sharp-edged with longing; it beat me down and ran out among the shadows like a darting blade.
We floated under the Bridge of Sighs and drew up at the landing. She leant heavily on my arm. We walked along the quay in silence. Few people were about. I saw mistily; my eyes were burning as if they had gazed too long into a glowing furnace. She drooped245 against me like a crushed flower.
“You’re breaking my heart, Fiesole. I’d give you anything, but the thing that would hurt you. Let me have time to consider.”
I was saying to myself, “Perhaps it would be right to marry her.” But the memory of her whisper clamored insistently246 in my ears and prevented me from thinking, “I want you now—now—now.” With her voice she made no reply.
We entered the hotel and stole past the office; the porter was sleeping with his head bowed across his arms. On the dimly lit stairs she dragged on my arm, so that I halted. Suddenly she freed herself and broke from me, running on ahead.
Standing still, almost hiding from her, I listened for her door to open and shut. Nothing stirred. I crept along the naked passage and found her leaning against the wall outside our rooms. Her head was thrown back in weariness, not in defiance247; her arms were spread out helplessly; her hands, with palms inward, wandered blindly over the wall’s surface. She was panting like a hunted fawn248. Her knees shook under her. Her attitude was horribly that of one who had been crucified.
Made reckless by remorse249, I bent over her and kissed her. Because I did not put my arms about her, she made no response.
Something happened, wholly inexplicable250, as though we had been joined by a third presence. Not a stair creaked. Everyone was in bed. The air was flooded with the slow, sweet smell of violets. I became aware of a palpitating sense of moral danger.
I drew back from Fiesole. Her physical fascination251 faded from me; yet I had never felt more tender towards her.
“I’m sorry, dear,” I said.
She met my gaze with a frozen, focusless expression of despair. Her hands ceased their wandering.
I entered my room and, closing the door, stood pressed against the panel, listening. After what seemed an interminable silence, her door opened and shut. I looked out into the passage; it was empty.
I spent a sleepless252 night and rose with my mind made up; since she wanted it I would marry her.
Going downstairs, I found she had not breakfasted. As a rule she was an earlier riser than myself; usually I found her waiting for me. I went for a stroll on the Piazzetta to give her time. On my return she had not appeared. I was beginning to grow nervous; then it occurred to me that she was postponing253 the first awkwardness of meeting me by breakfasting in bed.
Taking my place at our table in the window, I told the waiter to carry Fiesole’s rolls and coffee up to her bedroom. He looked a trifle blank, and hurried away without explanation. He returned, followed by the proprietor, who informed me with much secret amusement that the signora had called for her bill at seven o’clock that morning and had departed, taking her baggage. I inquired if she had left any message for me; the proprietor stifled254 a laugh and shook his head. I immediately looked up trains, to discover which one she had intended catching255. There was one which had left Venice at eight for Milan. At the station I found that a lady resembling Fiesole had taken a ticket for the through-journey. By this time it was ten; the next train did not leave till two o’clock. I sent a telegram to catch her at Brescia, to be delivered to her in the carriage. No reply had been returned by the time I left Venice. I reached Milan in the evening and pursued my inquiries256 till midnight, but could get no trace of her. Either I had been mistaken in her direction, or she had alighted at one of the intermediate stations.
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poignancy
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habitual
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amazement
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bantering
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fascination
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