I wouldn't, even at the price of losing her—and I was now passionately4 anxious not to lose her—use a single phrase of endearment5 that did not come out of me almost in spite of myself. At any rate I would not cheat her. And my offer of marriage when at last I sent it to her from Chicago was, as I remember it, almost business-like. I atoned6 soon enough for that arid7 letter in ten thousand sweet words that came of themselves to my lips. And she paid me at any rate in my own coin when she sent me her answer by cable, the one word "Yes."
And indeed I was already in love with her long before I wrote. It was only a dread8 of giving her a single undeserved cheapness that had held me back so long. It was that and the perplexity that Mary still gripped my feelings; my old love for her was there in my heart in spite of my new passion for Rachel, it was blackened perhaps and ruined and changed but it was there. It was as if a new crater9 burnt now in the ampler circumference10 of an old volcano, which showed all the more desolate11 and sorrowful and obsolete12 for the warm light of the new flames....
How impatiently I came home! Thoughts of England I had not dared to think for three long years might now do what they would in me. I dreamt of the Surrey Hills and the great woods of Burnmore Park, of the changing skies and stirring soft winds of our grey green Motherland. There was fog in the Irish Sea, and we lost the better part of a day hooting13 our way towards Liverpool while I fretted14 about the ship with all my luggage packed, staring at the grey waters that weltered under the mist. It was the longest day in my life. My heart was full of desire, my eyes ached for the little fields and golden October skies of England, England that was waiting to welcome me back from my exile with such open arms. I was coming home,—home.
I hurried through London into Surrey and in my father's study, warned by a telegram, I found a bright-eyed, resolute15 young woman awaiting me, with the quality about her of one who embarks16 upon a long premeditated adventure. And I found too a family her sisters and her brother all gladly ready for me, my father too was a happy man, and on the eighth of November in 1906 Rachel and I were married in the little church at Shere. We stayed for a week or so in Hampshire near Ringwood, the season was late that year and the trees still very beautiful; and then we went to Portofino on the Ligurian coast.
There presently Gidding joined us and we began to work out the schemes we had made in America, the schemes that now fill my life.
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v.嘲弄,戏仿;n.嘲弄,取笑,滑稽模仿 | |
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n.良心上的不安( scruple的名词复数 );顾虑,顾忌v.感到于心不安,有顾忌( scruple的第三人称单数 ) | |
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n.(织物)质地;(材料)构造;结构;肌理 | |
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4 passionately | |
ad.热烈地,激烈地 | |
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5 endearment | |
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v.补偿,赎(罪)( atone的过去式和过去分词 );补偿,弥补,赎回 | |
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adj.干旱的;(土地)贫瘠的 | |
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