Such it seems to me are the chief masses of the complex of motives1 in us, the group of sense, the group of pride, curiosity and the imitative and suggested motives, making up the system of impulses which is our will. Such has been the common outfit3 of motives in every age, and in every age its melee4 has been found insufficient5 in itself. It is a heterogeneous6 system, it does not form in any sense a completed or balanced system, its constituents7 are variable and compete amongst themselves. They are not so much arranged about one another as superposed and higgledy-piggledy. The senses and curiosity war with pride and one another, the motives suggested to us fall into conflict with this element or that of our intimate and habitual8 selves. We find all our instincts are snares9 to excess. Excesses of indulgence lead to excesses of abstinence, and even the sense of beauty may be clouded and betray. So to us all, even for the most balanced of us, come disappointments, regrets, gaps; and for most of us who are ill-balanced, miseries10 and despairs. Nearly all of us want something to hold us together — something to dominate this swarming11 confusion and save us from the black misery12 of wounded and exploded pride, of thwarted13 desire, of futile14 conclusions. We want more oneness, some steadying thing that will afford an escape from fluctuations15.
Different people, of differing temperament16 and tradition, have sought oneness, this steadying and universalizing thing, in various manners. Some have attained17 it in this manner, and some in that. Scarcely a religious system has existed that has not worked effectively and proved true for someone. To me it seems that the need is synthetic18, that some synthetic idea and belief is needed to harmonize one’s life, to give a law by which motive2 may be tried against motive and an effectual peace of mind achieved. I want an active peace and not a quiescence19, and I do not want to suppress and expel any motive at all. But to many people the effort takes the form of attempts to cut off some part of oneself as it were, to repudiate20 altogether some straining or distressing21 or disappointing factor in the scheme of motives, and find a tranquillizing refuge in the residuum. So we have men and women abandoning their share in economic development, crushing the impulses and evading23 the complications that arise out of sex and flying to devotions and simple duties in nunneries and monasteries24; we have people cutting their lives down to a vegetarian25 dietary and scientific research, resorting to excesses of self-discipline, giving themselves up wholly to some “art” and making everything else subordinate to that, or, going in another direction, abandoning pride and love in favour of an acquired appetite for drugs or drink.
Now it seems to me that this desire to get the confused complex of life simplified is essentially26 what has been called the religious motive, and that the manner in which a man achieves that simplification, if he does achieve it, and imposes an order upon his life, is his religion. I find in the scheme of conversion27 and salvation28 as it is presented by many Christian29 sects30, a very exact statement of the mental processes I am trying to express. In these systems this discontent with the complexity31 of life upon which religion is based, is called the conviction of sin, and it is the first phase in the process of conversion — of finding salvation. It leads through distress22 and confusion to illumination, to the act of faith and peace.
And after peace comes the beginning of right conduct. If you believe and you are saved, you will want to behave well, you will do your utmost to behave well and to understand what is behaving well, and you will feel neither shame nor disappointment when after all you fail. You will say then: “so it is failure I had to achieve.” And you will not feel bitterly because you seem unsuccessful beside others or because you are misunderstood or unjustly treated, you will not bear malice32 nor cherish anger nor seek revenge, you will never turn towards suicide as a relief from intolerable things; indeed there will be no intolerable things. You will have peace within you.
But if you do not truly believe and are not saved, you will know it because you will still suffer the conflict of motives; and in regrets, confusions, remorses and discontents, you will suffer the penalties of the unbeliever and the lost. You will know certainly your own salvation.
1 motives | |
n.动机,目的( motive的名词复数 ) | |
参考例句: |
|
|
2 motive | |
n.动机,目的;adv.发动的,运动的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
3 outfit | |
n.(为特殊用途的)全套装备,全套服装 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
4 melee | |
n.混战;混战的人群 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
5 insufficient | |
adj.(for,of)不足的,不够的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
6 heterogeneous | |
adj.庞杂的;异类的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
7 constituents | |
n.选民( constituent的名词复数 );成分;构成部分;要素 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
8 habitual | |
adj.习惯性的;通常的,惯常的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
9 snares | |
n.陷阱( snare的名词复数 );圈套;诱人遭受失败(丢脸、损失等)的东西;诱惑物v.用罗网捕捉,诱陷,陷害( snare的第三人称单数 ) | |
参考例句: |
|
|
10 miseries | |
n.痛苦( misery的名词复数 );痛苦的事;穷困;常发牢骚的人 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
11 swarming | |
密集( swarm的现在分词 ); 云集; 成群地移动; 蜜蜂或其他飞行昆虫成群地飞来飞去 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
12 misery | |
n.痛苦,苦恼,苦难;悲惨的境遇,贫苦 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
13 thwarted | |
阻挠( thwart的过去式和过去分词 ); 使受挫折; 挫败; 横过 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
14 futile | |
adj.无效的,无用的,无希望的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
15 fluctuations | |
波动,涨落,起伏( fluctuation的名词复数 ) | |
参考例句: |
|
|
16 temperament | |
n.气质,性格,性情 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
17 attained | |
(通常经过努力)实现( attain的过去式和过去分词 ); 达到; 获得; 达到(某年龄、水平、状况) | |
参考例句: |
|
|
18 synthetic | |
adj.合成的,人工的;综合的;n.人工制品 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
19 quiescence | |
n.静止 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
20 repudiate | |
v.拒绝,拒付,拒绝履行 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
21 distressing | |
a.使人痛苦的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
22 distress | |
n.苦恼,痛苦,不舒适;不幸;vt.使悲痛 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
23 evading | |
逃避( evade的现在分词 ); 避开; 回避; 想不出 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
24 monasteries | |
修道院( monastery的名词复数 ) | |
参考例句: |
|
|
25 vegetarian | |
n.素食者;adj.素食的 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
26 essentially | |
adv.本质上,实质上,基本上 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
27 conversion | |
n.转化,转换,转变 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
28 salvation | |
n.(尤指基督)救世,超度,拯救,解困 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
29 Christian | |
adj.基督教徒的;n.基督教徒 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
30 sects | |
n.宗派,教派( sect的名词复数 ) | |
参考例句: |
|
|
31 complexity | |
n.复杂(性),复杂的事物 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
32 malice | |
n.恶意,怨恨,蓄意;[律]预谋 | |
参考例句: |
|
|
欢迎访问英文小说网 |